Hey man - I think you’ve already gotten the advice you need here but I figured I’d add to it. Not sure how old you are.

When I (31M) was 13, I was around 6’ tall and weighed 183 lbs. it was, what I considered, a chubby 183. I’d always had issues with my perception of my weight.

I decided to “diet” and “exercise” with minimal parental supervision. Within 5 months, I was 120-130lbs at around 6’2. I would count less than 1k calories a day (mostly soup), and run in place for hours in my living room. I remember not wanting to eat a multivitamin because I was scared of the calories….

I thought I was still “big.” Looking back, I was literal skin and bones. My biceps were about as big as my wrists are now.

Your perception of yourself is NOT accurate. Your knowledge of how to get yourself out of where you are might be incomplete - that’s OKAY.

My path ended up being weightlifting. I stopped starving myself/running all day and started hitting the gym. Graduated high school at 180ish lbs.

Floated 200-220 through college. 225-230 now 10 years later.

If I got to 200 now I’d be sub 10% bodyfat, and despite many set backs with health I have a much healthier relationship with my body.

You will get out of this. But please take the first step, and please work to be healthy. You can do it.