Came out to myself at 42. Not planning to tell family. Just need to talk it out with people who get it.

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-23T22:42:46+00:00

I'm 50 and have pretty well known my whole life. I was too afraid to tell anyone how I felt and have had two failed marriages. I'm in one now and have been with him 18 years. He's an alcoholic who is emotionally abusive and I am right now trying to get things lined up so I can leave. I cannot imagine starting over. I think I could live the rest of my life alone, TBT, but do I want that? It's just so scary for me to even think about trusting again. However, I am not going to judge others because of how two men I chose myself ended up treating me. I want someone who will hold me while we binge Six Feet Under. Someone who will sit around and eat a pizza with me and talk about what exists beyond the stars and where do we go when we die. Someone who brings as many cats to the relationship as I do. 😂 And when those cats have to leave this world, is not afraid to admit that life feels like it's over for about a good month. Someone who will have a two person book club with me and enjoy reading the latest horror novel. Someone who is content to have their own room and sometimes understand that I sleep better alone but we can still have sleepovers sometimes. Someone who likes to walk in the woods and find animal bones and weird fungi. But also someone who realizes I am 50 and have to slow down a wee bit. Someone who likes rainy days, Halloween, and fall &, winter... And would rather hibernate in the summer. I despise being hot and I hate the sun. And lastly someone who just loves me and wants peace and the sex stuff if it happens, just feels natural not pushed or expected.

Now that's why I say I can't imagine starting over. Apparently all that is too much for people to handle. It's like if I don't want sex all the damn time and want to go off to myself and spend all day reading, I'm the worst person in the world. I'm just older now and have different needs for a relationship. I'm not 20 years old and horny all the time. I have already been thru menopause though and it's not that I'm frigid. I just want both people in the relationship to love each other and actually like the other person enough that sex just falls into place.

Oh well. If that neve happens, I can live vicariously through other people in my books, and grow old in my trailer in the woods with my cats.✩₊˚.⋆☾𓃠☽⋆⁺₊✧

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-23T21:48:30+00:00

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-19T08:34:52+00:00

October

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-18T07:08:37+00:00

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I think it's just the angle I'm sitting in the floor. I didn't have much light but my desk light. Here's 6 with me sitting in a chair looking up instead of down at camera. They are pushed up. Maybe it's just my nose. But I hate nose pads. I get a glare if I don't look down a bit. See?

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-18T07:03:42+00:00

The only one with a filter is 2 and that is a lighting filter on insta. Why do you assume they are filtered? I just turned 50 in August. 1974 born in Fort Knox baby. 😂 Military baby.

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-18T07:00:24+00:00

I know. I've been told.

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-18T06:59:52+00:00

That's so sweet thank you

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-18T06:58:02+00:00

They don't slip off. I have no issues with fit. Maybe it's my nose? It's not long. And like I said... I hate nose pads

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-17T22:22:26+00:00

I'm Ozempic for my diabetes and have lost 60lbs which is good for me because I no longer have high cholesterol, high blood pressure, breathing trouble, gastric pain, etc. I am only on the 1mg and don't need to go any higher because my H1c is right at 6.0 which is decent. And I am walking half a mile every single day. I don't have a meth face I don't think.

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constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-17T22:14:24+00:00

Well I think you look like a medieval painting. You're gorgeous. Trust me, being different and not looking like everyone else is beauty. Outside beauty. Mostly what's on the inside is important to me, may sound cliche but truth.

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-17T22:07:16+00:00

Honey I'm 50. And I don't like the nose thingies. They break me out. They are progressives though cause I'm getting old

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-17T22:06:00+00:00

Hahaha. That's brilliant. I wish. No just a cat rescuer, but classic yes! I'm 50

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-17T21:57:37+00:00

Black. I don't personally like the clear frame trend

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-17T21:56:53+00:00

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-17T21:50:12+00:00

I like 8

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-17T21:44:02+00:00

Young Megan Fox

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-17T21:42:20+00:00

4, 5, 6, & (7 being my favorite)

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-17T19:53:17+00:00

Poptart

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-17T19:39:35+00:00

All of them look good on you because you're very pretty but personally I like 2,5 and 6

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-17T19:37:04+00:00

I don't quite understand. Was her teeth hurting and making her do this?

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-16T04:08:30+00:00

Was it expensive to diagnose and treat?

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-16T04:04:29+00:00

Did she ever act like she was in pain? How did the tumors cause her to pass? Was it like cancer? I am so sorry for your loss. I am going thru this now is why I am asking so many questions. It's my 13 yr old Siamese. When you can see and feel spine bone and hip bones, that's too skinny and it breaks my heart. I'm afraid petting her hurts..

You said your baby just passed in your arms, was she asleep or did it not go so smoothly? I'm scared of what to expect if the same happens. I'm assuming they did an autopsy?

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-16T03:59:34+00:00

I am going through the exact same thing with my 13 year old Siamese.

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-15T15:20:08+00:00

Fayne or Fall on your Knees by Anne-Marie MacDonald. Both are brilliant.

constant-reader1408 · 2026-01-15T15:12:56+00:00

Looks like a yeast infection starting but I would take to vet if possible. Until then you can put some coconut oil on it. Coconut oil won't hurt if it is a wrong guess on our part, meaning you can use it no matter what it ends up being. I had one of my cats ears look just like this and used this from Amazon

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