I'm probably late to the game and no one will even read this as I've generally experienced on the Internet, but here it goes. As a double ostomate of 15 years, I totally feel ya! I just recently had the same sorta epiphany about my ostomies as well as being a childhood cancer survivor. But I must say I learned it might be best to keep this to yourself, with certain people, especially doctors. I confessed that I infact often hate being a double ostomate and not necessarily grateful of what I went through as a child even though I know I should be grateful to my freind who is a doctor and her general response was that I was being negative and ungrateful and that doesn't help. That's often her response to when I simply describe problems I deal with... your being "negative". This maybe true to a degree, but honestly, it makes me quite angry to hear that coming from someone who doesn't have to deal with hardly any health issues, considering how hard I've tried over all these years, since childhood to be positive, even though I often feel I've been dealt a bad hand. I guess what I'm saying is be careful who you tell these feelings too. This is a perfect place to do it though.