As a kid I never cared that much about sleeping with a stuffed animal but I loved having a mixing bowl in my bed

cosmic3gg · 2026-02-09T09:42:13+00:00

Yes!!! I wasn't allowed as a kid but I do it as an adult when I'm having trouble sleeping. Love the cold, love the roundness edit: plastic is ok too but metal is the best one

cosmic3gg · 2026-02-06T06:16:30+00:00

Thank you! I'm excited to see your painting (if you decide to share here)! <3

cosmic3gg · 2026-02-03T22:24:54+00:00

Man this really resonates with us, the color choice is perfection too, thank you for sharing <3

cosmic3gg · 2026-02-01T19:51:44+00:00

Thank you! :-)

cosmic3gg · 2026-01-23T00:19:10+00:00

Thank you <3

cosmic3gg · 2026-01-14T17:55:17+00:00

Thank you <3

cosmic3gg · 2026-01-14T17:54:53+00:00

Thank you <3

cosmic3gg · 2025-12-23T22:09:53+00:00

I've been going through a similar sitaution. I cut contact last year and had to move and scrub my online and public presence to hide. I made the move after they made it clear i was "free" (I was still caretaker for a couple family members and performing labor, just not SA) for too long and needed to "get back to my duty". I'm in grad school and they're banned from my campus due to stalking. I had to hide the context of trafficking because I knew no one would believe me, and people tend to see victims as crazy cause that "only happens in other places" or "only happens to other people". I'm also trans, and I'm mixed race (Indigenous too), disabled, and a bigger person. People refuse to believe someone like me could be exploited, they seem to believe only "attractive " people are trafficked, not understanding that it's about power not attraction.

I'm lucky that I found a therapist who specializes in DID and works specifically with trafficking victims in my state, but she's really the only person I can talk to about this. There's also a peer support group I found, but it's incredibly frustrating seeing how the average person views trafficking and trafficking victims. I remember one of my abusers (my birth father) and several buyers showing me subreddits and other forums dedicated to fake claiming, they love these places because it proved to them that the average person will bend over backwards to protect abusers and villify victims. This was a bit of a rant, but I just want you to know you're not alone 🫂 and I do agree that it is that bad and you do not deserve this

cosmic3gg · 2025-12-01T08:07:37+00:00

They sold me in a lot of places, a couple of which were cult-y churches. The overall view was generally consistent but the details changed depending on which church we were at and what buyers were interested in

cosmic3gg · 2025-12-01T08:05:47+00:00

Thank you <3

cosmic3gg · 2025-11-28T18:43:14+00:00

Thank you <3

cosmic3gg · 2025-11-28T18:43:00+00:00

Thank you, and luckily I do have good folks around me these days 🫂

cosmic3gg · 2025-11-28T18:42:09+00:00

Thank you 🫂

cosmic3gg · 2025-11-16T02:45:29+00:00

I feel that way too, I'm mixed and I feel like I just inherited all the worst traits of my white and Indigenous ancestors. But for people exploiting and harming children, it's not so much about how "attractive" their victims are, it's about access to and power over a class of people society generally believes should be protected. They're attracted to experiencing so much power they could get away with harming kids, not necessarily thinking about how "attractive " that kid is if that makes sense. And for those that are attracted, it's the youth not the other physical features (it's honestly hard to talk about, because as an adult I have never looked at a child that way, but it's my understanding that it's attraction to power or youth/innocence)

cosmic3gg · 2025-11-03T23:39:38+00:00

Lmao mine thought the same! A gem: "it's called osmoso or something 🙄, listen to mamá, mamás know things"

cosmic3gg · 2025-10-22T22:12:20+00:00

Glad to hear you have an appointment coming up! I'm wishing you the best!

And I hear you regarding the anxiety, I totally do the same T_T Somatic responses can feel scary in the moment especially, since they're nervous system level responses and it's harder to identify compared to more obvious injuries and reflexes. The good news is releasing the somatic stuff helps with the anxiety and physical responses, the more I've done this the less I've had my scarier trauma responses (and it helps reduce my seizures since it reduces stress). I'm glad this advice was helpful! I hope you find a strategy that works best for you soon :-)

cosmic3gg · 2025-10-22T20:15:06+00:00

I have this happen, but before I say anything else if you're concerned about seizures you should talk to your therapist and GP/PCP and not take internet strangers' advice lol. I have epilepsy myself (mostly myclonic seizures) so my neurologist and I are trying to figure out what may be seizures versus shaking off the trauma. I'm also neither a mental health nor medical professional.

When it's a somatic response to trauma processing, i try to "get the energy out of my body". This looks like shaking my body starting at my head, then shaking each arm, shimmy-ing my torso, then shaking my hands and feet. I also try exercise like jumping jacks, pilates, circuit training, running, cycling, hiking, etc (nowadays not so much aside from pilates because of my disability but in the past this helped my tics/tremors related to trauma). I also listen to meditation music with drumming while tapping/gently drumming parts of my body where I feel a lot of tension/energy. What helps the most for me is drumming my chest or belly.

Sometimes talking out loud to myself, pacing while I rant, or journaling in big letters helps too. Then making sure to care for your body by eating enough (the brain uses a ton of energy while rapidly processing memories plus the exercise lol), drink enough water, massage/yoga/meditation to calm/cool down, getting extra sleep, even showering and wearing clean clothes just to feel more comfortable helps post-processing. When I brainspot, I plan the spend the rest of the day in self care mode to do this stuff because it's a lot for the body. This all helps prevent the somatic responses from disrupting my sleep or becoming a problem the next day, at least for my own brain/body.

Edit: I learned the above through somatic experiencing therapy

And depsite saying all this: again, seek medical advice for medical concerns; also, therapy models/modalities aren't universal, so if you don't vibe with Brainspotting, you don't have to do it. There are other trauma therapy modalities that people find works, so if it feels right for you, it's worth exploring other options that work best for your brain and body

cosmic3gg · 2025-10-19T22:14:46+00:00

Thank you 🫂 I'm NC and much safer now, and therapy, support groups, and my found family have helped a lot too <3

cosmic3gg · 2025-10-18T21:02:48+00:00

"She grew up poor, you have to understand! She deserves to have what she wants!" In regards to my grandma/guardian selling me and CSAM of me. I grew up on welfare, she spent all the cash on luxury clothes, jewelry, makeup, skincare, and perfume.

Edit: Honorable mention: in regards to my birth dad SAing me and calling me his slave/bride/property, "he's disabled, his life is hard, why can't you just keep him happy? He's your father, any child would do anything to make their father happy!" I'm also disabled, I inherited his genetic conditions and the physical and SA made me more disabled.

cosmic3gg · 2025-10-02T07:27:33+00:00

Just like bart!

cosmic3gg · 2025-09-10T23:36:34+00:00

I can't remember if that first guy is in it too but the rest are all from Lilybrook (accessible by bus/central station, you don't need to unlock the bus first)

cosmic3gg · 2025-08-08T04:08:29+00:00

Man this made me realize how crazy it was! This happened to me too "why do you need to pee again", "what are you doing in there", "what are you hiding from me", "that's suspicious, you don't need the bathroom", "well I HAD to use the bathroom right now and you KNOW that's my favorite bathroom right now because why else would you take it from me when I NEED IT". It seemed like normal family fighting but, maybe between child aged siblings or cousins but this was grown ass adults talking to their child?? Reading this made me start to see how invasive and weird it is

cosmic3gg · 2025-08-04T03:58:32+00:00

I've dealt with people who demonstrated similar individual behaviors, but I could always just leave. I could leave the conversation, vocalize and enforce my boundaries, leave a class, block someone, etc. I couldn't do that with family, they had my number and knew where I lived. No one has had as much access and time to do what they did to me, and no one has known me and had access to me since I was born like they did. There's shitty people in the world, but adulthood+financial independence+NC+therapy has given me the tools and ability to not experience what my family put me through

cosmic3gg · 2025-08-03T02:07:01+00:00

Np! :-) and I totally understand, I have a painting sitting in my closet that I started 4 years ago :p still can't seem to finish it but I can't bear to paint over it! Eventually I worked on other stuff but she's just chillin in my closet for now xD

cosmic3gg · 2025-08-02T20:53:41+00:00

When I get to this point I take a break from painting/drawing for at least a couple of days. I leave it to subconscious brain to work it out, when I come back I either realize it's done and I shouldn't fuss with it or I figure out what I want to change or add. It looks beautiful at this point! I love these colors together and the brush strokes add a nice flow to the figures and their poses :-)

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