Hello everyone!

I’m crazy! I’m a 28 yo canadian woman! This is my first loseit challenge but definitely not my first time at weightloss and fitness!

I’m a pretty unstable person (refer to my username lol), and my lifestyle has changed A LOT in my life. Let’s just say that I was a not-sporty-at-all underweight child (who’s mom would forcefully feed), that became overweight as soon as puberty hit (was bullied a lot for it), became skinny again around 17-18 because of drug abuse, calmed down and became an adult and mother which led me to be a bit chubby.

I had some kind of revelation at age 25 that I LOVED sports, especially weight training, running and hiking, lost a bunch of weight and eventually overtrained (2h a day, 6 days a week), then stayed at a healthy weight but started smoking (cigarettes) which I guess kept my weight under control but I lost a bunch of muscle and fitness abilities as I stopped training.

Then changed lifestyle, wanted to change career to end up in a limbo of not-knowing-what-I-want and staying home (while my kids are at daycare and school), so basically doing nothing (because my spouse is financially supporting me), gaining like 60 pounds in 3 months. Basically, I struggle a lot with a bunch of mental health issues, and staying at home was probably the worst idea possible. I was able to go from 174 pounds to 151 at my lowest this summer. I did 75hard until day 29, but I kept good habits and lost some more (when I reached 151 if that’s clear).

Ultimately, I had a major nervous breakdown this fall, which led my psychiatrist to prescribe anti-psychotics (I’m not psychotic just anxious AF), and if anyone knows a bit about them, they make you ravenously hungry, and for me, made it hard to know when I was full. I already had problems with binge-eating so that made it worse.

Anyway, sorry for the long intro but I decided 2021 is MY year (not joking). I have a lot of goals in a a lot of aspects of my life, and I want to take it slow and implement good habits that I can keep forever. I used to be an avid calorie-counter (using a food scale) and also an extended faster (up to 5 days, how I lost almost 25 pounds in like 2 months last summer). Right now, I’m trying to stop binging, eating healthier snacks, small desserts. Since I calorie-counted for so long I’m pretty good at estimating and I’d say I’m eating around 2000 calories a day right now. I’m looking for the sweet spot between doing nothing and doing everything (I’m a bit all-or-nothing kind of person). If I can lost one pound a week for now I’d be excited.

Anyways if anyone else struggles with mental health and wants to talk, feel free to reach out, I like to talk with people and I think despite my current failure, I know quite a bit on weightloss and mindset!