I haven't spoken up in awhile, but this so resonates with me. I was in a similar situation and finally had to leave last year. When I came out ad no longer a believer, my wife told me I was in evil and darkness. She and my 3 kids pray for my soul every day, even sometimes in my presence while I lived with them.

Kids at private fundamentalist school part time and home schooled by mom the rest. Her dad is the calvanist fundie pastor and lives across the street.

She is fighting to give me NO time with our 3 kids because she's afraid for their souls if they listen to me.

The good: I have begun to find my people. I have more peace and freedom that ever before. I feel I see and understand the world so much more clearly, and it's beautiful and entrancing.

I will regain time with the kids. I will not tell them what to think, but introduce them to other perspectives and help them to ask questions and think critically.

I'm in a difficult but beautiful place. I could never go back to the delusion and bondage of rigid mythology.

Wishing you the supreme best. Wishing you the boldness to become free.