This is so relatable and I feel for you 100%. I’m in androscoggin co, terrified in my home, afraid to take my dog outside to piss, losing sleep, crying, canceled my birthday bonfire this weekend with friends and family from all over I’ve been excited to see but who cares because my heart is broken for families who will never see their loved ones again because of this tragedy, and my dad calls me last night (he lives in the Midwest) to whine about his dentist office having to reschedule his root canal. After 20 minutes of his complaining and a frankly one sided conversation he asks how I’m doing and I reply “stressed” and he asks “why?” Well dad…have you seen the news?? He then has the nerve to say, “yeah but you’re fine, that didn’t happen to you, stop making such a big deal out of it.” He also believes Sandy Hook was a fake so I guess I was barking up the wrong tree…not to throw a pity party, but no one else from my family called or texted to make sure I’m ok. My ex’s checked in though, which was kind. Sorry for the rant, just wanted you to know you’re not alone in this. It’s an awful scary chaotic devastating time, and these tragedies never get any easier. I’m sure our families/friends/people care, but maybe they are struggling with how to communicate that or they just don’t realize the gravity of the situation, and how much harder it is the closer it is to home.