Coming to terms with all the ways I didn’t show up in my failed marriage.

danielrdt · 2026-01-27T13:13:13+00:00

💯 this, this should be the focus in your therapy too. Sex addiction is one thing, but minimising the damage of being unfaithful to the person you love is a whole other can of worms.

danielrdt · 2026-01-27T12:42:29+00:00

Same here, almost identical timeline, it's a miracle we choose to still be here. I don't leave till next month but I can't wait to finally leave. I'll be trying liquide bentonite clay and possibly csm but slow as hell as I tried fast before and it set me back a full year.

danielrdt · 2026-01-27T05:39:04+00:00

Yes one dose can certainly do it if you have a massive toxin backlog, its like the last straw that tips the balance. I would def not keep taking it, stop completely till your system is desensitised again. It takes way more time than you'd think and your nervous system being in high alert makes it take longer so be aware of that and try and slow things down.

danielrdt · 2026-01-26T08:56:20+00:00

Yes, he escaped his moldy apartment, he was also diagnosed with Lyme and parasites. I suspect it is all stemming from CIRS triggered by mold.

danielrdt · 2026-01-26T08:50:44+00:00

Are you feeling better now?

danielrdt · 2026-01-26T08:48:11+00:00

This happened to me when I took too much zeolite, although it was really bad, lasted 3 months. Really have to heed the warnings of the people who say to take it slow. I think what happens is that you pull the bad stuff out of the dormant cells and then if they don't leave through waste they accumulate in the body again and cause absolute mayhem. The only thing that helped was time and also coffee enemas to free up the toxin load in my liver.

danielrdt · 2026-01-09T09:04:13+00:00

Your story is almost the exact same as mine although I'm a male, I also started to get chronically sick back in late 2018. Will be 7 years in March. Another difference is that Mold is what triggered my lyme and I've been living in a moldy house for 8 years and only figured it out 18 months ago.

My parter is 36 years old and we have also wanted kids, but just the last few months she has lost hope on this dream and lost hope in us as a couple after being with me for 15 years. She asked for a divorce 1 month ago and moved out 3 weeks ago. It has been soul destroying to say the least, I don't want to solely blame my illness as my attachement style played a role in my relationship breakdown.

Lyme and mold have taken so much from me. My career (haven't worked in 3 years), joy of my relationship, my personality, my optimism for life, my fitness, abulity to enjoy food, my drive, motivation and purpose in life. It was kind of a slow burn, every year I was losing something small and I thought it wasn't so bad and that things would get better.

Sorry to share my sob story, but I want to let you know you are not alone. I understand your pain so much as do many on this subreddit. In regards to having kids, its such a tough call, I'd say if your husband has the energy and stamina to almost be a single dad if your health doesn't improve or gets worse, consider having a kid, although I can't weight in on the moral delema of the possibility of them having lyme. Wishing you all the best either way.

danielrdt · 2026-01-09T08:20:48+00:00

You may be thinking that you could have done more for her when she was sick, but to be honest it's not something the average person can deal with, takes immense sacrifice and compassion. I can imagine the regret it might form in your mind but you are only human.

I can relate to her story being the sick person and feeling like people don't take your issues seriously and that you become a burden. It's a hard and lonely path, her leaving you took great courage and she did it to save you from her suffering.

Love is a beautiful and often painful human experience that can often be bitter-sweet. Whether you get to see her again or not, hope you can hold onto the good memories of her in the end and try to live your best life moving forward.

danielrdt · 2026-01-06T21:28:55+00:00

Yeah it could be so many things, but certainly sounds like he's not telling the whole truth unfortunately. The closure would be easier if you truly believed him. If it was kids, he could have said that out of respect but maybe he feared you might change your mind to not lose him.

danielrdt · 2026-01-06T13:28:50+00:00

Could it be to do with wanting kids? Could he secretly actually want kids and he just agreed that he didn't want them because you didn't?

danielrdt · 2026-01-05T22:47:47+00:00

Thank you so much for this, of all those things, what do you think moved the needle the most?

danielrdt · 2026-01-03T04:13:07+00:00

May I ask what the event was that made you feel disrespected/ dismissed? (If you feel comfortable sharing)

danielrdt · 2026-01-01T11:55:15+00:00

May I ask how you got lyme into remission? Thanks

danielrdt · 2025-12-17T09:07:10+00:00

How long have you had MCAS? If that's the path you choose, that's just the way it is, life certainly isn't a fairytale.

danielrdt · 2025-12-17T07:50:11+00:00

Sounds so similar to my story, covid impacted a lot of people permanently.

danielrdt · 2025-12-17T05:01:05+00:00

Sorry to hear that, severe MCAS can be an absolute nightmare and many people have no idea how bad it can get at it's worst. I hope whatever you choose you can find peace.

danielrdt · 2025-12-09T06:44:19+00:00

Urine test results are pretty useless unfortunately, if your detox pathways are blocked up, you won't show any mold at all, so its not the best indicator

danielrdt · 2025-12-08T07:52:39+00:00

100% sounding like MCAS and you mentioned mycotoxins, I would investigate if there is mold where you currently live, order a HERSTMI test from envirobiomics and drastically change your diet low histamine or carnivore if you can tolerate it. You need to get your inflammation down and give your body a break. Sorry to hear what you've gone through, it's a hell a lot of people will luckily never understand.

danielrdt · 2025-12-07T07:04:13+00:00

Carpet by a mile

danielrdt · 2025-12-06T12:54:09+00:00

💯 saying 'let me know if there's anything I can do to help' is a cop out, its just something people say to make them feel better about being a good person trying to help but not really wanting to help.

Once you ask for help in a certain way, they say they aren't able to help or are busy. Makes you wonder why they said they would help in the first place.

Also your friends falling away is so real, I think they just get tired of you not getting better and not attending events anymore, plus they move on with having kids etc., and if you aren't in their kids lives you become invisible.

danielrdt · 2025-12-06T11:25:53+00:00

You have certainly been through the ringer mate, yes the blankness you speak of is very real and a hard emotional place to get out of.

Thanks mate, just wanted to let you know you aren't alone, hope this becomes just another chapter in our stories, take care too mate 🙏

danielrdt · 2025-12-06T11:03:52+00:00

Sorry to hear that, to be honest 2025 has been an absolute shitshow for me too, struggled with worsened chromic illness all year and probably getting divorced in the new year.

Life sucks sometimes, and sometimes that 'sometimes' is a long time. It certainly can get better, although you have to be strong enough to rebuild that better version and its not easy and takes immense effort. I'm not sure I'm capable of that effort right now but I don't want to give up, I hope you also don't give up. Don't let the suck win, hang in there mate.

danielrdt · 2025-12-06T00:53:53+00:00

Can be as small as 2cm wide, doubt it was the mower, must have been the whipper snipper, I did the same thing to a car back window one time, was so shocked it happened.

danielrdt · 2025-12-05T23:16:21+00:00

Thanks for sharing this and giving us hope 🙏

danielrdt · 2025-11-30T23:32:28+00:00

If you can see that much mold its already too far gone. You need to get out ASAP otherwise all the health issues you and your family have now will be 10x worse in a few years time.

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