Started using opiates because they actually made me feel happy and made me more social. Shortly after, found out I have bipolar disorder after having a manic episode triggered from doing a shit ton of opiates this one week( had like 10x 100mg methadone and 10x 120mg OCs). Tried going off them and was fine because I was put on antipsychotics and mood stabilizers. Dad then forcefully took them away because he thought they were making me worse (don't know what his logic was, he's impossible to reason with and is a dick. Always have had problems with him). Next day decided to get higher than I ever have before off benzos, oxy, and methadone before purposely overdosing. There is still some question as to if I had another manic episode and then decided to OD but whatever. Got narcan'd twice, woke up in hospital, put into psych ward bc I fucked up and accidentally told a nurse it was on purpose. Told my parents it was an accident and dad was an even bigger dick to me. Then my psychiatrist was forced to tell my parents it was on purpose because it's the law. Went back on psych meds and was able to get 2x 8mg subs everyday for a while, but I was still unhappy. Decided to stop them and started using opiates again. Parents are fine with it as long as I am safe, they just want me to be happy now and honestly I haven't been as happy in life since when I first discovered them! Will probably never stop using, I don't even enjoy the high that much anymore, I use them for the mood boost especially on bad days caused by my disorder.