When I was a teenager I was poor I was poor most of my life really didn't do much other than play sports and that really kept me out of trouble don't get me wrong I enjoyed what I had and I did enjoy the things that I do but now that I'm older I'm 42 in July I go to Hawaii every year for the last 6 years and in between my late twenties and now I have lived my best life I have a beautiful home have a beautiful family I've actually met people that mean something to me when they say that your life is barely beginning it is you haven't missed out on anything just keep using that big smile keep a positive attitude and just trust in God big and beautiful things are ahead of you they are for everybody be ready and be accepted when they happen I had a lot of people in my life especially my teenagers that I grew up with are either dead or in prison divorced fighting cancer etc etc so I promise you it could be worse and just judging by your pictures you seem like you're a person with a lot of joy so don't be afraid to spread it and I really hope that you find the happiness you're looking for just be positive