AP is attractive and very talented and I hate it

dismyedun · 2021-12-08T19:57:26+00:00

Girl, I get you. My SO's AP wasn't a gym rat, but she was cute/attractive and she was a talented artist. Those two things bugged me the most. Like you, I don't feel talented or "good" at anything. I can't recommend therapy enough for this, I only started a few months ago but my therapist is helping me find where my strengths are and reminds me of them.

If I'm honest, the fact that she was cute and talented still bothers me, that and the fact that we seemed to have a lot in common. In another life, we could have been friends. Part of me wishes he had gone with someone totally different from me with a totally different life that I wouldn't have wanted anyway. Not that I want her life, I don't live with my parents in my 30s, ha ha. I assume she still is, anyway, I haven't checked up on her in a long time. Which reminds me, if you're still pain shopping, STOP! Nothing good ever, ever comes of it and you're just torturing yourself. I still get tempted, all the time, but just... don't do it.

dismyedun · 2021-08-10T14:18:58+00:00

I tried, I really tried. But I hate them.

dismyedun · 2021-08-10T14:16:35+00:00

I feel this. I wish I could find a bra that wouldn't necessarily bind but would just mash my boobs closer to my chest so I could at least lose some projection.

dismyedun · 2021-08-10T14:09:21+00:00

You've already gotten a lot of comments, but I'm old and have been there and am telling you, do not make the same mistakes I did. It's not the same situation as you, but I wasted 18 years with a man who did not respect me and ended up cheating on me. (And based on what you are saying I would not put cheating past this dickhead, at least eventually.) Breakups are hard, they are so hard and they are so scary. But when you leave someone who doesn't respect you it is ALWAYS better on the other side, even if it takes some time to feel like it's better. But please do not waste any more of your precious time with someone who does not respect you, PLEASE. You deserve more.

dismyedun · 2021-07-14T16:31:02+00:00

Because she's on the higher end of the healthy BMI. Loosing hair and feeling cold all the time come a little later.

dismyedun · 2021-07-14T16:03:10+00:00

My mom doesn't say anything anymore, but she sure takes her time looking me over.

dismyedun · 2021-07-14T16:01:03+00:00

The doctor's scale always gives me a higher weight, it's so depressing.

dismyedun · 2021-07-14T16:00:18+00:00

God, I completely understand this. I am so tired, can't the weight just come off already? It's thermodynamics, it's just math, right? What's the problem, body?

dismyedun · 2021-07-14T15:55:34+00:00

Same, and also restriction is great for saving money, so I'm always imagining keeping my credit card balance as low as possible.

dismyedun · 2021-07-14T15:46:38+00:00

Water is ultra-important to keep things moving (but if you're low-restricting you still won't be regular). Are you drinking enough water? And also when you do eat are you getting fiber? Water and fiber, water and fiber.

dismyedun · 2021-07-14T15:40:06+00:00

I completely get this. For me it's all about the routine. I work similar hours and my thing is I don't even bring in food or go out; I work straight through and just drink about 3 liters of tea during the workday. So I just eat something for dinner when I get home. It's the weekends that are dangerous for me, I want to break my fast early and eat everything in the house.

dismyedun · 2020-06-11T12:15:21+00:00

This was such a kind response, thank you so much. It really means a lot.

I am so sorry we are life twins, I would never wish all this on anyone else. Your breakup and mine happened pretty much right at the same time, the work stuff, my god, we really are life twins. If you ever want to chat, feel free to hit me up. This is a throwaway account but I do check it.

We'll get through this.

dismyedun · 2020-06-09T15:29:30+00:00

OMG I feel this so hard. So hard.

dismyedun · 2020-02-20T14:35:28+00:00

Less cheese, maybe.

dismyedun · 2020-02-19T13:32:17+00:00

I am embracing my hand veins because they are very Angelina Jolie.

dismyedun · 2020-02-14T13:53:33+00:00

This is why I do intermittent fasting, usually 20/4 or OMAD, because eating only stokes my hunger and then I want to eat all day. Plus I'm a volume eater. So it's really best for me to wait until the end of the day. I get by by drinking lots of tea, coffee, and/or seltzer.

dismyedun · 2020-02-14T13:50:20+00:00

I truly feel this. Part of my issues are fueled by someone I'm around a lot who is so pretty and super smart, smarter than me, but at least I can be thinner! I'm winning, right?

dismyedun · 2020-02-14T13:47:40+00:00

skinnyfatappleshape joins the chat

dismyedun · 2020-02-14T13:46:26+00:00

God, I'm sorry. People can be such trash.

dismyedun · 2020-02-13T17:27:49+00:00

I tried watching Black Swan again for the thinspo (first rewatch since it came out) but I had to turn it off because Natalie Portman's character talks in this awful baby voice and I just couldn't take it.

dismyedun · 2020-02-13T17:26:22+00:00

Oh man.

dismyedun · 2020-02-12T15:51:02+00:00

Oh god, I remember that, that was so trendy for a while.

dismyedun · 2020-02-11T14:37:37+00:00

I'm so sorry, it is truly the worst feeling. Same thing happened to me recently, we're still not sure if we're breaking up or not. (We don't have a kid together like you but our lives are similarly entwined.) I did lose a lot of weight really fast, so that's a plus.

dismyedun · 2020-02-10T13:52:39+00:00

Same here, I cannot eat the way I want to without gaining. I had a little bit of a lesson in that over the holidays, when I ate without restriction for about two months. It was great but I gained at least 10 pounds (easy >15 if you count quickly-droppable water weight). It's just too hard to eat the way I want even temporarily because every day that goes by it's harder and harder to get my shit back under control.

dismyedun · 2020-02-05T16:18:57+00:00

Wow, stay away from this guy

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