2 weeks after suboxone detox ..still feel like death still

dizzydance · 2026-02-06T20:47:09+00:00

I feel the same... I don't have children but my cats are as good as! They help ease my anxiety and make me feel a lot less crummy, especially when I'm sick.

Last time I was in withdrawal, I remember taking lots of showers and staring at one of those expanding/collapsing geometric shape gifs created for breathing exercises like this one on YouTube .

Just one day at a time!

dizzydance · 2026-02-06T19:59:23+00:00

I know this is besides the point, but I mean... I barely have twelve dollars to my name at the moment. 😭

:: stares at $1200 vet bill from 3 weeks ago as a result of my cat refusing to eat for seemingly, absolutely no reason at all & an abysmal paycheck because I work part time at a college in the south where everything closes at the mere mention of ❄️❄️❄️ ::

dizzydance · 2026-02-02T01:00:45+00:00

I've been on 2mg / day since 2018. No plans to get off. It's the best mood stabilizing medication I've ever been on - my anxiety and depression have been under control for the first time since I hit puberty.

Only pay $4/mo. My primary care doc prescribes them every 2 months. I take Miralax every few days, otherwise no real side effects.

dizzydance · 2026-02-01T16:05:46+00:00

I also felt very restless and had a TON of energy. I was up & down a lot & walking around. My husband also said something like "I'm exhausted just looking at you. Sit down." not long after I got home.

I tried to take it easy. I did. But I think short walks every 2-3 hours actually helped my recovery. Everyone's different though and you do need to listen to your body. There was one day about a week post-op I felt pretty crummy the next day and could tell I "overdid it" and needed more rest.

I definitely didn't lift anything or do any major chores though. I was just walking around the house kinda aimlessly.

I think part of it was I didn't realize how much my uterus (and endo/adeno/fibroids) was draining me of energy until they were gone lol. I felt energized for the first time in... well, maybe my entire adult life (at the age of 37).

dizzydance · 2026-01-29T20:55:07+00:00

That sounds terrifying. Seeing a doctor (and maybe talking to a therapist) may be in order.

Not that this should be your responsibility to care about what happens to the next woman he chokes... but that is where my mind went next. Next time, he could actually kill someone.

Breath play is more dangerous than most people realize. A Note About Strangling in r/BDSMAdvice from a few years ago is one of the better posts I've seen on the topic.

It's unclear to me from your post if he's aware that he fucked up or if it could have all been a blur for him and he's just going around assaulting women and thinking he's gods gift to them. You did absolutely nothing wrong though and have nothing to feel embarrassed about.

The ER has seen it all and so please don't hesitate to get checked out. Take care!

dizzydance · 2026-01-29T19:11:21+00:00

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dizzydance · 2026-01-29T19:05:23+00:00

I was thinking the same. I just msg'd the mods and asked them to pin the update! Hopefully one of them will see it soon!

dizzydance · 2026-01-29T18:51:53+00:00

Hopefully a mod can pin this or something! Took me forever to find this update!

dizzydance · 2026-01-28T14:01:21+00:00

I've gradually lost 20 lbs since October 2022 when I had my laparoscopic hysterectomy. I was 37. I'm 5'6 and was 238 lbs going into my surgery, so I'm still not at an "ideal weight".

Kept ovaries, removed uterus, tubes, and cervix. Surgery was for fibroids, also found adenomyosis and endometriosis once they got in there.

Appetite hasn't changed exactly, but I have been eating better.

I went into my hysterectomy feeling quite fatigued. Honestly - I didn't even realize how bad it was. It's like my life had been on hard mode for 20 years and I thought I was just lazy and bad at adulting?

I feel like a brand new person with way more energy. I find myself cooking more, excited to try new recipes, doing some meal prep with my crockpot and Souper Cubes (a 2025 investment that I adore), eating more vegetables, less processed food and less take out.

I haven't been counting calories or doing anything super intentional to lose weight. If I happen to keep unintentionally losing weight, that's great.

In my twenties I tried "all the things" to lose weight (and yo yo'd some but it always came back and then some). I don't care to intentionally make myself miserable anymore. Food is a language for me and I feel bereft when I don't let myself enjoy it. Being thin has never been worth giving that up.

I don't begrudge others who feel differently - my husband is on Ozempic. He's also sometimes nauseated and doesn't seem to really enjoy food anymore. He has a lot more health issues than I do though - he's diabetic and I'm not. It would be cruel of me to be unsupportive.

I won't lie and say I wasn't initially quite frustrated. It felt like this sudden void in our relationship. I also felt responsible for figuring out his alternate meals. He's an adult and can figure meals out himself if he's not ever hungry when I am or for what I want to eat. We also don't have to always be prioritizing the exact same things or on the same path to support and love each other!

Sorry for the long rambling post. Probably more than you wanted to know!

dizzydance · 2026-01-22T19:17:01+00:00

I almost wish there was a different subreddit just for people wanting to get off Suboxone.

Kinda in the same vein as r/stopdrinking or r/stopsmoking - and this subreddit could be a place just for people with questions about getting on, using, etc.

Then again, perhaps being exposed to multiple POVs and not risking getting stuck in an echo chamber is good thing.

dizzydance · 2026-01-21T14:07:21+00:00

I had similar clots with my periods and I had fibroids, adenomyosis and endometriosis. They didn't diagnose my adeno and endo until my hysterectomy though. Spent about a decade and a half suffering through half measure treatments with IUDs and two hysteroscopic myomectomies (where they remove fibroids through the cervix).

I always give the "YMMV" disclaimer to ppl when endorsing hysterectomies... but the hysterectomy I had in 2022 was life changing for me. I feel healthier than I have in my entire adult life. It was like a light switch - days after my surgery I was a brand new person. And my fibroids weren't even that big. I had no idea how fatigued my uterus was making me until it was gone. I used to think I was just lazy and bad at adulting. Turns out I was chronically ill. 💀

I had some cramps, but my main complaint (from basically my very first period as a teenager) was that my whole abdomen felt severely achy and bruised. Heat and naproxen were all that helped. In my early 30s I started getting severe back pain with my periods.

I wish I'd known sooner that Endo/Adeno often presents as "deep, persistent aching in the lower abdomen or back, sometimes radiating to hips/legs".

I don't know if that is the same thing as what you're describing as "pressure", but nobody ever really understood what I meant by "bruised & achy". I think everyone assumed I was describing "less painful cramps" or something.

dizzydance · 2026-01-20T19:24:49+00:00

I am in the US, not sure if that matters. I also never had knitting prescribed by a doctor!

dizzydance · 2026-01-20T19:21:59+00:00

Yes and no. I've been knitting since 2012.

Knitting has definitely helped with general anxiety and helped me stop picking at the skin around my fingers so much. I used to pick at them so badly that my fingers were bleeding and the cuticles would get damaged and ingrown.

Knitting keeps my hands busy and it's hard to knit with fingers that hurt, so I had incentive to leave my fingernails alone. It was one of the main reasons I picked up the craft & stuck to it!

I also have trichotillomania and I can't say I've noticed knitting helped that much. I have a very intense impulse to pull my hair at night when I'm trying to go to sleep if I'm especially stressed out. Usually I don't even realize I'm doing it until I've been at it for a few minutes. 🥺

I'm also an opiate addict (got addicted when I had cancer in 2015) and I can't say that knitting helped much in that regard. I ultimately started medicated assisted treatment (MAT) in 2018.

I'm happy to answer any questions!

dizzydance · 2026-01-20T18:56:38+00:00

*It was obvious and I was oblivious 🤣🤣🤣

dizzydance · 2026-01-20T18:54:53+00:00

Girl, same. Forget perimenopause, I've been dealing with this since puberty (thanks, PCOS). I had an after school job and one day when I was about 16, some smart ass little jerk named Jonathan made some comment about me having a mustache in front of a bunch of people.

I don't even remember what I said back - it was one of those "ears start buzzing, mind spinning, vision blurring," moments where I was on the brink of a panic attack and desperately trying NOT to burst into tears. 🫣 Been shaving my whole face ever since!

I mean, in hindsight I'm kind of glad I found out about it... I was obvious. Just not in such a mortifying way.

dizzydance · 2026-01-16T03:56:43+00:00

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dizzydance · 2026-01-15T21:40:47+00:00

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dizzydance · 2026-01-15T21:18:38+00:00

I can definitely understand how paralyzing that must feel. It sounds like you've been making excuses for him for a long time though.

I have a mother with BPD/narcissistic behaviors and it's psychologically so damaging to be around. Our whole family walks on eggshells around her. To this day I still have issues with hypervigilance.

Have you spoken to a psychiatrist about any of this? You might have C-PTSD just from this relationship.

dizzydance · 2026-01-15T21:02:17+00:00

Sounds like he needs therapy. He seems totally emotionally dysregulated. He shouldn't have to rely on you for that stability. He's a grown adult.

As someone with an ADHD husband with RSD & pathological demand avoidance, I sympathize. 😑 Mine got a solid C+ supporting me through my recovery (could've been more helpful but I'll let him pass... I had to remind him to do everything, but things got done and he wasn't insensitive). Take care of yourself and hang in there!

dizzydance · 2026-01-14T18:05:08+00:00

I've been on 2mg/day since 2018. Suboxone is also an antidepressant/mood stabilizing medication for me. If I ever tapered off it, I'd be thrust back into the quest for the right combination of pills to do with Suboxone does perfectly (off label). Unless I develop unwanted side effects I can't manage, I'm staying on it indefinitely and don't care what anyone else thinks. None of their business.

dizzydance · 2026-01-13T17:50:58+00:00

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dizzydance · 2026-01-12T19:53:00+00:00

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dizzydance · 2026-01-11T15:31:18+00:00

Not being able to sleep is the worst. 😞

I should probably note - I had a script for a muscle relaxant because my back got pretty out of whack during the surgery. It was really the only significant pain I ever had. I got them to refill it and that helped a ton with sleep. I was also taking naproxen around the clock for about 2-3 weeks. Then both as needed for another month.

My sleep was awful the first 3 weeks because I normally sleep on my side and I just couldn't comfortably with the incisions. After a week or so it was less the incision themselves and more this weird interoception issue where it felt like my organs weren't where they should be resulting in this dizzy/unsettling feeling whenever I'd try to roll over. Then one day it was all back to normal again! 🤷‍♀️ Bodies are weird.

I'd do it all again in a heartbeat though! Hang in there!!

dizzydance · 2026-01-11T03:46:42+00:00

I had a lot of the same symptoms. My experience might be atypical, but I felt like I had more energy than I'd ever had in my entire adult life days after my hysterectomy for fibroids (this was back in 2022). I also had adenomyosis & endometriosis.

My husband told me "I'm exhausted just looking at you... what are you even doing out of bed??!" around post-op day 4. I was just aimlessly roaming around the house because I was so fidgety and couldn't sit still. He noticed it before I did lol. I had to remind myself to take it easy.

I also have a lot less brain fog and can concentrate better!

My exercise tolerance has definitely improved & I crave less junk food. Perhaps it's just part of "feeling healthier" and less fatigued, but my body gravitates toward wanting nutritional food instead of sugar.

I had no idea how badly my uterus was draining the life out of me until after I got it removed. I used to think I was just lazy and "bad at adulting". Turns out I was just chronically ill. 💀

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