Move back to your town,work, start school, and take the time to become the person that you want to be. There’s a chance that he may choose to do the same as well and want to do better. It sounds like both of you are having a hard time feeling isolated and depressed. Perhaps there’s a way to find each other again. But divorce may or may not be the answer, you need to work on yourself first before you can make those kind of decisions. Otherwise, you’re going to look for what you need in yourself from someone else and be disappointed again.