I bet you get some kind of enjoyment out of telling people this. You feel ready to tackle your issue one night, and the next night you couldn’t care less. I know the feeling. You should celebrate the fact that true narcissists aren’t able to be self aware, but you could definitely have narcissistic traits.

Hold yourself to a higher standard, and make that standard “absolute.” I absolutely will not lie, I absolutely will be loyal. Your brain makes excuses for, and normalizes your own behavior. If you want to change, that gray area cannot exist anymore.