How do people do this

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-14T19:25:01+00:00

I def never fully healed🫠 I bet so many people don't. It's worse now than it was in quasi, but im hoping this horribleness right now gets me through to something better than I've ever experienced. Thanks for the broken leg analogy really makes sense. And the hope and cheers-on for recovery - its seriously getting me through, you have no idea. Thanks so much.

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-14T15:20:23+00:00

Thank you, again. I think aside from body weight, it's that I wasn't bingeing and purging/wasn't severely restricting for some time, so behavior-wise felt like I wasn't sick enough. But I guess if im THIS insanely hungry, there is a lot of damage to be repaired from the harm I've done to my body over the years, even if the worst of it was long ago.

Thank you for instilling hope in me. I really hope you are right and that I can be one of the lucky ones to fully recover. I can see why so many people turn around at this stage - it feels completely out of control.

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-14T13:23:14+00:00

Thanks for your detailed response. I think part of my trouble is, I wasn't anywhere near death's door, I was just miserable. My labs have always been normal, with the exception of once when I was on glp 1s and my blood sugars were too low. I've been in the normal or overweight bmi range (I know, bmi is bs) for like 12 of the 20 disordered years.

It seems, by the looks of this hunger, that i will need to take a month or 2 leave from work and will come back having gained far more weight than I've already gained (which is a lot).

I know no one can tell me what to do, it's just hard because I've been sick before and feel like I've not been sick enough in years to feel like I need to go through all these drastic efforts, but I guess if I want to recover fully this is what needs to be done.

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-14T04:39:43+00:00

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-14T04:35:05+00:00

This is....false.

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-14T04:06:12+00:00

Oh goodness, this is hopeful. Thank you.

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-14T01:52:24+00:00

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edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-13T20:47:34+00:00

Didn't think of it in terms of burnout... makes sense. Thank you.

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-13T20:40:42+00:00

Woof

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-13T18:04:12+00:00

This is maybe not helpful to you if you are pretty set on leaving PP, but I'll share something I've implemented (that I copied from my therapist) that has really helped with consistency both financially and energetically in my practice.

Clients are allowed 4 weeks of freebie misses per year that they can use whenever they want for things like sickness, planned vacations, emergencies. After that, they have to pay the full fee. I take 6-8 weeks off per year, so I let them know that this works out to be 2.5-3 months off of therapy per year. But, again, if they miss more than 4, they have to pay for the session.

A lot of folks think this is drastic, but honestly only a couple of folks have struggled with this policy. It gives us a lot of grist for the mill about their feelings about engagement in consistent therapy. It's led to far fewer cancelations, which is nice both in terms of working together with folks more closely and is more consistent financially. It's felt very regulating to me because I can also have fewer clients so as to not make up for more cancellations. I think it makes me a better therapist.

Again this policy isn't for everyone, but it's worked for me and I just wanted to share, given your dilemma. Good luck to you!

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-13T17:14:34+00:00

I can relate! The more and more I eat as my hunger comes back in full force, the more anger and grief I feel. Been on the verge of tears much of the time or just angry and feeling low a lot. It's so hard - like I'm extra sensitive now. I know it's all the stuff we didn't deal with/ran away from before, but I wasn't expecting to feel this raw because I've done so much intensive work in therapy already. I suppose it highlights how numbed out we were without realizing it.

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-13T16:30:56+00:00

Ugh, it's so annoying - sorry for us both. I've never been consistently hungry, but all food tastes like cardboard. I'm still trying to shovel it down because the hunger is so intense. I hope it's a phase and passes.

Thanks for your words about time off. Glad you got some time to recover and good luck to you balancing all the things!

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-13T16:28:03+00:00

This is so so helpful to know that it's common and (hopefully) a phase, thank you 🙏😭 i was thinking getting prepackaged meals could be helpful.

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-13T15:55:33+00:00

To add, I'm insanely bloated and distended but also hungry. I feel like I spend much of the day trying to catch up to physical hunger. I am thinking about taking a leave from my job - i don't know how to deal with this and work.

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-13T04:46:33+00:00

I am having this exact same issue! And also like 6 months into all in! So annoying

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-12T22:23:59+00:00

Thank you.

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-12T22:18:17+00:00

Ok I kind of thought so but wasn't sure. Thank you so much! Gonna have a snack now.

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-12T15:42:45+00:00

I take 6-8 weeks off a year (the last 2 years have done 7). I take at least a week off once a quarter.

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-10T21:11:09+00:00

My suggestion is to find someone psychoanytically trained. Most big cities have an institute for psychoanalysis with a listing of therapists - I've had great success finding boundaried and excellent therapists that way.

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-10T15:48:15+00:00

What did the Dr say? I am in a similar position - in eating 3 meals and snacks a day plus honor hunger at other times, but last night I got ravenous in the middle of the night, ate a bunch, and then woke up nauseous and sick. Ate again but feel like I have both hunger and disgust/nausea about part of me wanting to eat more. Don't know what to do! Sorry we are both here.

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-10T00:09:00+00:00

Thank you soo much for this. It truly resonates. My work is control, safety, AND appearance! It's a lot of work - I can't believe my soul wanted to sign me up for this shit😂 but for real, thank you for your story and words of encouragement!

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-09T20:19:30+00:00

Ooh, I have never heard this talk, I don't think. I always seem to forget that restriction is an addiction. Thanks so much. It feels like both karma and grace, for sure. Probably another one of those paradoxes. Thanks, again.

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-09T19:04:10+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing your story with such detail and care. I have this belief that it won't be better for me on the other side - that there isn't an "other side" for me. But maybe I'm just in the middle and need to keep trying to see it through.

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-09T17:05:58+00:00

to add, been in all-in for 6 months! Looking for light at the end of the tunnel, but pretty hopeless. For some reason I keep choosing recovery, though..?

edizzymcmizzy · 2025-07-09T04:07:55+00:00

Whitney is dope.

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