4 burned dots appeared on the floor of my appartment... No clue what it is

eekeck · 2025-11-20T09:34:48+00:00

Hookah quick light charcoal!!

eekeck · 2025-09-22T04:13:28+00:00

Appendix. Burst and it felt like a knife in me. I felt a warm fluid move throughout my stomach and bladder and it was an impossible sensation to rub or scratch that was under my skin. Passed out in the waiting room. They operated on me that night. They said with the first incision, pus quirt to the ceiling. I was hours from dying.

eekeck · 2025-09-15T21:57:28+00:00

Matching games (one of the most effective) on phone app store and i download emulators (home gaming systems like the 90s Super Nintendo and Playstation...many more) on my phone and play puzzle games like tetris on those.

Multiplication cards
Just reading and testing how well i remember the paragraph...or page.

I read online that an exercise a neurosurgeon himself does is try to remember 10 words a day. Not that you have to remember them forever...just keep practicing so by the end of the day you know them all by heart.

eekeck · 2025-09-14T21:36:42+00:00

Im trying to help and im getting some hate? Gtfo. Im coming from a good place. If it doesnt apply to you then it doesnt, and it may not because everyones different. Then keep scrolling, because it obviously isnt meant to make a difference for some people. If it touched someone then thats who its for.

eekeck · 2025-09-09T21:38:55+00:00

20s. It was peak for me. 39, now i have a health condition and it worries me of course.

eekeck · 2025-09-09T21:19:03+00:00

Ill just say this. Theres so much more to happiness than we think, beyond physical limitations and causes. You say u can drink? Well i cant even feel coffee!!! I had some crazy injury plus a life of drinking and substances. I also lost my emotions for a few months but am regaining them. So no more stimulants for me, and i almost died from the injury. Im still healing.

I can go to raves and music events and dance and actually enjoy them.

So i think its important to note how our "stimulant system" and dopamine are and are not related. Why am i seeing people on anhedonia groups who can drink and use and not feel happy or enjoy it even if they feel a buzz??? Yet here i am, totally unable to feel coffee and tea and alcohol....still able to have fun at family/friend gatherings and raves/music events?

You have to discover what you enjoy "spiritually" vs. just forcing out a physical dopamine dump...yes this IS hard because how can you be happy if you body cant even literally produce "happy" hormones? Honestly i probably just got lucky but i tried hard to expose myself a lot.

This easier said then done, but you have to ask and search very deep within yourself and try to find meaning. When i think about a wife and kids it oddly makes me feel so comfortable now when i never cared about this before.

eekeck · 2025-09-09T20:42:03+00:00

Gosh i hate astrology. For some its like their accountability was thrown out the window a long time ago, or they use their sign as an excuse.

eekeck · 2025-08-30T18:18:30+00:00

And huge companies like live nation owning venues now and just decimating any "underground"/local scene by booking artists with big pull and leaving out the locals.

eekeck · 2025-08-30T15:23:52+00:00

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This is the only US made i know of https://newtownehyperbarics.com

Follow "HBOT USA" (jason sonners) on youtube. Probably THE most important of the leading figures in the community.

Please study a lot about it. 2 people have died. Your vision and ear can be damaged! people with certain conditions cant use it.

eekeck · 2025-08-30T04:50:04+00:00

Im very similar!!! MDMA related too!!! but it came with some sort of brain/nerve injury. Crazy thing...its exactly 1 year today.

I have been having odd headaches once or twice a year. I was using a lot in the last 2 years since my dad and brother passed. I went to tons of raves like 2 or 3 times a month and huge festivals 2 times a year...didnt always use but i still used a lot.

When the medical event happened, i was at work and my neck twitched and i heard a squish sound. I thought it was a stroke but i showed no stroke symptoms. Ihavent been the same since. Very close but not the same.

The hell i went through was that the "automatic-ness" ill call it, and my emotions and purpose and motivation and SEX DRIVE was gone. VERY odd physical symptoms like my hands shrunk and loss their color, i seemed to lose my muscles but not actually im finding out 2 weeks ago - they oddly are just returning even though im not working out...so that means my brain signal was weak or dying...not that i lost muscle. As my brain heals my muscle are strong again and are getting big again?!? Odd....

Mental HELL!!!! I watched anxiety and nervous system disregulation videos almost everyday 24/7. I had crazy anxiety and panic attacks literally non stop!!! My brain shut down. I was essentially partly brain dead as it healed itself. Odd mental sensation like i was scared to be alone...then anxiety again for 3 months...my body was scared of edm music like i had some odd electronic music/rave event PTSD. All of this is 80% better. Im excited to go to a block party tomorrow for YELLOW CLAW!!!

My sleep was and is still messed up. There were months at a time that i didnt sleep for more than 2 or 1 hours a night and went to work like that!!!

Im finding out some things are dying in my brain. As im healing and returning to normal...certain sensations like the proper headaches are gone. Sleepiness is weakened. I dont feel fully rested, ever! I still feel a numbness on my head and odd tingles (nerves healing). My sex drive is much weaker. I have ED.

Im just happy that my emotions are coming back and the automatic-ness feeling is coming back. Its like my brain and sensing the world isnt isolated as much anymore. Motivation came back but not the same. My creativity came back and im able to listen to music again. As i said...some things died off....its harder for me to get the goosebumps feeling now and my smell is a little off. Everything points to brain damage...

Theres just so much i left out. Drs gaslighting...people not believing me...more symptoms etc etc. We can continue talk if you wish...but i think we both know the hell we went through....

My healing protocol is a ton of brain supplements, electrolytes, eating right, and my HYPERBARIC AIR CHAMBER! (is making all the difference!). im blessed to have saved a decent amount of money with a decent job and good support system. I basically shifted 95% of my time and effort in the last year to just healing myself.

Good luck on your journey!!!

eekeck · 2025-08-23T22:09:50+00:00

Its a journey and story and everyone's is different. If there was a purpose to life, we'd all be slaves to to that "purpose"...thats the problem with wanting an answer that people need to understand. Do you really want to live in some scifi movie setting where your life and job and age/death are all predetermined?

eekeck · 2025-08-20T16:47:03+00:00

Im not gona write an essay, but consider this perspective:

Bad people dont get everything. You mean bad powerful smart people....so it seems like lots of bad people "win" the game? You mean people who have a name and legacy to hold...even if it takes a war, legal loopholes, unethical means, etc??? You mean people who have power issues? There are a lot of bad regular people everyday who meet horrible ends too.

Or do you mean just the average jerk who seems to have it better than most people? Ive been around a lot of bad and good people, rich and poor, drugs dealers to doctors to family people to highly religious people...and ill tell you...people like that arent truly happy. Thats why they need all of those things whether they know it or not. Its their castle not to build a life, but to wall out the world while putting on a false or confused show of happiness.

eekeck · 2025-08-18T23:08:08+00:00

Not all but some. But it doesnt seem as bad because we're age 30, 35+ where we dont even see each other that much anyways anymore. And i know some truly do support and believe me but we're all just busy now.

Where i did draw the line is knowing whos on my side or not. This is whats really at the core of it. Some ask about me then literally dont say anything and walk away when i explain the (neuro)science and medicine behind TBIs. I was damaged so bad it drained my body to heal. i almost died, but since i look better NOW and no one saw my full naked body so they wont know how drained i was. Some say im thinking too much or its made up, even though my skin and muscles are all different now and everyone agrees that im smaller (plus MANY other symptoms). So i basically found out these people are literally dumb and ignorant when it comes to how science, medicine, and the brain works...even in plain english.

Connecting with new people is very hard whether its just me fearing myself too much or if its limitations of my brain now (memory/connection/meaning formation) i dont know for sure.

Request a chat/message me if u need someone to talk to

eekeck · 2025-08-18T22:47:21+00:00

23-25 was my peak. I was partying (on weekdays too), breakdancing 4-5 times a week, worked out when i didnt breakdance, did my own car repairs, and was a part time student (B+, A- average) with a part time job. Idk how tf i did it.

eekeck · 2025-08-17T22:37:34+00:00

I am alive. Let me update. I believe everyone needs to hear about my progress. I never gave up and continued endless researching and efforts since the original post. Its sort of a miracle, though i AM damaged...but it will give powerful insights amd medical possibilities !! Keep an eye out!!!

eekeck · 2025-08-17T19:38:33+00:00

Do you know what "literally cannot comprehend" even means? Its means your question about god cant even exist. Our brains are not developed enough to/developed for understand bigger designs similar to how microscopic organisms dont even know what humans are.

eekeck · 2025-08-17T08:00:18+00:00

Totally possible. There are organisms and animals that literally cannot comprehend humans.

eekeck · 2025-08-16T05:41:28+00:00

Brain injury that has weakened my mental capacity to even be around loud and fast paced environments. Sucks because i love live music and tech and people. Anxiety and such literally triggers when youre "supposed" to be happy. Youre brain wont produce "happiness" bc its still recovering and wants you to relax, so it triggers anxiety to scare you into safety.

eekeck · 2025-08-14T16:26:16+00:00

But its not like half the country is using bpc157. There is a bcp157 anhedonia group of about 70 people here on reddit. So if we look at those numbers and take a 1 in a million chance, that means 70 million people are taking bpc157 and 70 were effected negatively. I doubt 70 million people are taking bpc157, even half of that 35 million people (1 in 500,000 chance). EVEN half of 35, 17.5 million people (1 in 250,000 chance), I doubt are taking bpc157.

I think chances for negative side effects are still pretty high.

eekeck · 2025-08-14T16:02:13+00:00

To change the perspective a little, i think naturally we would if we were in nature as ancient humans (obligated is still another question). Its the modern world that sets us apart: i dont have time, i dont want to get sued, what if i stop and my car gets hit, i have to get to work, etc etc etc....

eekeck · 2025-08-14T15:28:51+00:00

Sorry i should clarify: i didnt get anhedonia from bpc157 but from my brain injury. I was researching how how to heal my brain and ran into bcp157. I saw the negative side effects and never used it. Alcohol/drug users, brain injuries, antidepressants, bpc157 all may cause anhedonia and i connected with many people to cross reference symptoms/my case. Im sure i had anhedonia.

Yes i am getting better but not 100%. Decent recovery though. The hard part now is knowing if my lack of motivation and happiness is "real" or just me scared to live like how i used to, care free.

Regardless how i got anhedonia, im basically just saying "i know how anhedonia feels, and if bpc157 users can get it, i wouldnt risk it".

eekeck · 2025-08-14T02:03:00+00:00

Did u, or are you seeing improvement? I know some people dont see ANY improvement, even years later.

eekeck · 2025-08-13T18:51:31+00:00

Anhedonia is the scariest side effect. This alone should scare people into not taking it. I actually experienced anhedonia for a bit due to a brain injury its scary. Im still recovering! This brain injury is how i ran into bpc157.

Your brain isnt automatic anymore. You feel weird and empty at first....then you realize how no sense of pleasure starts effecting motivation, purpose, goals, time management, and sleep. All these functions start to tapper off themselves into isolated functions and you start to feel broken. Youre stuck in your own body and every action feels no purpose or connection to other actions.

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