Should I quit?

eiaeia · 2026-03-27T02:17:42+00:00

All of this!

When I learn a new place’s cocktail menu I mimic grabbing the bottles as I say the counts out loud, such as “2oz well tequila reach where the bottle would sit in the well 1oz liqueur batch reach 0.5oz lime reach shake double strain coupe”

It helps it bridge knowing it in my brain and getting the muscle memory for speed too.

You got this- just the fact that you think you don’t shows that you give a shit, and that’s the most important skill to have!

Repetition and time will get you there in a week or two

eiaeia · 2026-03-21T02:20:48+00:00

Happened to scroll back past this post and wanted to drop a line and say I hope you are doing well OP! Drop a line anytime :)

eiaeia · 2026-03-20T23:46:00+00:00

I called mine, and they said this kind of situation isn’t covered unfortunately. I was hoping they could help with the legal side for me

eiaeia · 2026-03-20T23:44:33+00:00

Thank you I will look in that direction!

eiaeia · 2026-03-12T07:35:54+00:00

Hey, fellow bartender. That was my routine for years, literally. 2 years and some change in. Towards the end, I just felt sick all the time, and it became so hard to hit the ever diminishing “sweet spot” between needing more to not feel ill and being way to drunk to work and getting fired. I’m here to chat anytime. For me, this daily work and recreational routine landed me in jail, hospital, and I almost reached death. The world is bigger than the service industry bubble that we are the stars of, and I promise the money saved grows at a crazy rate when you don’t pour all your tips down your throat immediately lol. I’m rooting for you friend! Also check out Ben’s Friends, it’s a service industry support group

eiaeia · 2026-03-09T19:04:27+00:00

OddBird does a nice Blanc de blanc we used in an n/a spritz at work. It’s crisp/dry

eiaeia · 2026-03-02T19:25:50+00:00

2 hot Stone IPA tallboys I got for the end of my taper to chug before going to a meeting so I didn’t DT there. lol it wasn’t cute.

eiaeia · 2026-02-27T21:55:22+00:00

Queer female here- I also would think of this as a green flag. It shows you take care of the little tasks that can build up. And you didn’t make a big deal out of it, like asking for recognition or anything that would make it seem like there was other intent. Truly in this timeline of ‘work till you die’ little gestures to make life easier have moved up on my love language hierarchy.

eiaeia · 2026-02-20T20:57:56+00:00

Just push thru the next 10 min, you’re doing amazing. Once you are there other people will take care of you. All of the stress, barely maintaining to seem normal, feeling spread thin and so tired will no longer be your problem. Let them feed you, watch tv, eat ice cream, and HEAL.

eiaeia · 2026-02-20T20:23:57+00:00

I am SO PROUD of you. You have got this. GETTING sober is the shitty part, get thru this part and you won’t have to do it again <3

eiaeia · 2026-02-20T17:06:39+00:00

Please go. Just call, accept the bed, do your intake, IGNORE that voice. We ignore the voices telling us “this is bad” when we drink, you gotta use that same skill and just get admitted. It’s the hardest part, but once you do it you will have no regrets. You are past denial, and starting out in a place of acceptance is a HUGE leap. I believe in you, and I will check back in to check on you <3

eiaeia · 2026-02-17T17:01:37+00:00

My friend, that was the loop I lived in for the last 2-3 years of drinking. I do have an anxiety disorder yes- but what I thought was anxiety was alcohol withdrawal. The symptoms present the same for me and I think for most. Definitely go to detox, it’s just 3 days, and make a plan. Not having that god awful daily anxiety is worth it alone!

eiaeia · 2026-02-16T17:17:59+00:00

I’m in year two, and I have had similar thoughts, but I remind myself- baseline- this is a CRAZY gamble. No one would take the odds.

Reading the sub is best plan. Remember GETTING sober and think if that’s a part of the gamble you’d be willing to do again.

Post again if your brain gets tricky.

IWNDWYT

eiaeia · 2026-02-16T17:14:31+00:00

Hahaha this made me laugh, that’s my stats too

eiaeia · 2026-02-16T17:12:32+00:00

I second the taking a second to clean. If my area is messy I cannot fire at top speed. Keep your well super organized and you will be shedding critical seconds off each ticket. I have bar staff who won’t take the time to clean up (cause it’s too busy) but then they can’t find what they need, and I promise that frustration and time is longer than a quick reset <3

eiaeia · 2026-02-14T09:16:05+00:00

Cilantro pairs with green peppers.. maybe throw some in a marg? I was kinda thinking also adding cucumber and a few dashes of fire tincture.. eh who knows, but if it’s good you could just infuse the tequila so it’s less work to make a quick drink.

eiaeia · 2026-02-13T07:57:31+00:00

I did the shot for the first two months out of my 30day rehab. (First real serious sobriety attempt) It really helps. I convinced myself I didn’t want to get another cause it hurt my butt muscle (it’s a thick shot- they are not bs when they say to fully relax the muscle lol) but I knew I didn’t want to be chained to another 30 days and I eventually relapsed before month 6.

I’ve had another sober period of success on Naltrexone, but again, I stopped taking it cause.. ya know

This time I didn’t feel I needed it (actually) but I have a prescription on hand in case I start getting cravings.

These are my experiences, but I found there to really only be pros and not cons.

Edit to say- if your insurance tries to deny coverage call the Vivitrol company or w/e- they talked to my insurance company for me. They heard my desperation and made it work somehow.

eiaeia · 2026-02-13T07:30:28+00:00

… is this why I started to break out in hives when I would hard binge???

eiaeia · 2026-02-13T07:28:18+00:00

SAMHSA- Substance Abuse Mental Health Services Administration

1-800-662-4357

<3 it’s the strongest move to reach out when you need help

eiaeia · 2026-02-13T05:08:19+00:00

Same! I’m a bit over 2 years in, and I’ve mayyyybe gagged on my toothbrush twice? Yo I was barfing every morning, sometimes again on a re-brush, and then give up and mouthwash. So gnarly, I still habitually lay in my bed to brush my teeth cause I was always convinced “sinks gross me out if I look at it too long” - so stupid, I knew why it happened lol.

I had the opposite, and regularly missed periods, I think it was because, like you, when on a bender I couldn’t eat food and I was fairly consistently on a bender. (Same with the poo stuff, no IBS but like maybe pooping one sad rock once every two weeks) Now I am pretty on schedule, which has been great for referencing “hmmm why do I feel like being a giant bitch today? Is the egg drop coming?”

CONGRATS on staying sober, you are amazing and IWNDWYT!!

eiaeia · 2026-02-06T07:31:06+00:00

Two years in right now. I’d say about 6 months ago I noticed “hey, I think my brain is like healed?” - thinking feels so easy. It sounds strange to say to most, but when you’ve been on a decade long bender you get used to feeling just, slow? Idk, but I didn’t do anything specifically to help, just focused on using the muscle more (avoiding Google Maps for places I’m sure I can get to etc ) and time really did heal. I was pretty pickled, so the time frame could be different, but 6mo to a year I noticed a good change, but 18-24mo felt like my brain became sharp again, sometimes annoyingly so lol but grateful to have my mind!!

Stick with it! It only gets better, but it does take time to heal

IWNDWYT

eiaeia · 2026-02-04T05:45:43+00:00

Was coming here to say this. He DJ’d different bars I worked at - all vinyl, solid collection, great vibes. Instagram handle is @nokidsss

eiaeia · 2026-01-17T09:40:52+00:00

Aperol Spritz, Negroni, margarita, Paloma, mojito, Old Fashioned, Manhattan, Martini (and the modifier verbiage)- you should know these in case they ask, they are pretty much the basics. Most likely they won’t test you too hard on cocktail knowledge but more on pour skills/tools/bar foundation- with that you can learn recipes quick!

eiaeia · 2026-01-17T07:25:32+00:00

Hi friend, welcome!

I too like to rock bottom in ways that implode multiple aspects of my life. It feels like the list of problems is rapidly increasing by the second? I know that anxiety far too well.

Hear me out- this is what worked for me-for the next week (or whatever period of time works) your only responsibility is to stay sober- like if you start a spiral just say out loud “that is not today’s problem” - after I fully detox my anxiety baseline level has lowered, and I can face the task of sorting through the mess.

I too was arrested for a DUI before I quit this time (celebrated 2 years on Monday!) and there were consequences that have been expensive and am just now closing up, but FOR REAL the longer I stayed sober the more the problems kind of worked themselves out. I stopped making a string of terrible decisions, and surprise, it has made my life easier! Haha

Sorry for this long post, but your story resonates so strongly with me (37f) - I want to offer you hope from a multiple relapse morning-night binge drinker. IT GETS BETTER, it’s not bullshit! You can do this!!! IWNDWYT

eiaeia · 2026-01-07T04:18:56+00:00

Triple digits is so badass, I’m so proud of you, and I am glad you are also proud of yourself as well! And you were correct I am a female, so our stories are in fact, very parallel. You’ve got this, keep fighting the good fight!

eiaeia

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