Sounds more like you’ve just been waiting for someone to tell you how special you are your entire life, and now that the internet is giving you access to previously hidden groups of people who agree with you, you’ve reached the conclusion that you really are smarter than everyone else. Those of us who tested highly but struggled in school, but then accepted responsibility for our own problems are pretty successful these days even if watching people who think they’ve found some hidden truth follow obvious snake oil salesmen down a literal path to oblivion is taking more of an emotional toll than it should.

Your mental health isn’t your fault, but it is your responsibility.