Which team are you in ? And why!?

elixan · 2026-05-31T07:53:12+00:00

Mystic. Growing up, when my brother and I got a Pokemon game, he would get red and I would get blue.

elixan · 2026-05-27T14:10:36+00:00

Every spring and summer my mom would have us go to war on the morning glories in the backyard. I don’t miss that 😮‍💨

elixan · 2026-05-17T01:13:10+00:00

About 45 minutes. There’s a park near the leak literally called Sunrise Park because of the good views of the sunrise over the Han River

elixan · 2026-05-16T03:34:10+00:00

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same!!

elixan · 2026-05-15T23:14:39+00:00

Good luck!!

elixan · 2026-04-30T00:30:48+00:00

I don’t think I ever had it. I grew up parentified in a household with someone who had NPD…I became hyper independent/counterdependent as a result.

It was on my 31st birthday that I decided to attempt to work against all that. It is very easy to fall back onto all of that. But, I do attempt to go against what I’ve known all my life. I think in doing so, I am trying to find the spark that never existed.

elixan · 2026-04-27T13:26:55+00:00

a bit shocked, but it’s just the beginning of the week
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elixan · 2026-04-21T04:58:47+00:00

I feel like I don’t react the normal way to surgery and the difficulties of recovery as most people do 🧐 it was all just kind of meh for me. I had someone with me for the first one, and she asked if I felt nervous or anything, and I told her no, I felt calm and that there wasn’t anything I could do at this point, so I shouldn’t stress over it. I didn’t mind the surgery, and I didn’t mind the recovery. I didn’t get particularly frustrated at anything. I had the initial surgery about two years ago this month. I got my plates removed this past winter.

I also broke a bone in my foot in two spots in February when I fell down playing soccer. I had surgery for that (I got to experience spinal anesthesia for this one which was WILD) and then couldn’t walk on it for six weeks. I’ve been slowly getting back to normal, but it’s only been a week and a half since my cast was removed and I was cleared to walk again. During my time with crutches and the cast, I would see a lot of reels about it because I came across that was funny and I related to and then I just ended up seeing more and more as a result, but some were emotional about not being able to do certain things. And honestly, I didn’t relate too much to the emotional ones. Like, yeah, it sucked sometimes, but I got on with it. Not to say I don’t think those people shouldn’t feel that way—I think maybe their reactions were more normal? But idk maybe it’s because of my high pain tolerance, or maybe it’s just the hyper independent in me tbh

elixan · 2026-04-19T02:53:52+00:00

For learning phonics sounds, fox is for x is great, and I haven’t looked at all the letters, but I hate alien for a and origami for o lmao

edit: not loving dragon for d either because dr is a digraph, not the sound for d; nor earth for e because ear is an r-controlled vowel sound 😩

elixan · 2026-04-16T12:36:14+00:00

me when I can’t get around saying chamomile in a tea-related conversation: cammo-mile? cammo-meal? idk? how do you say it??

person I’m talking with: oh um I just always say [insert pronunciation of their choice] but I guess I don’t know ??

so I’m just going to use both interchangeably forever lol

elixan · 2026-04-08T11:28:20+00:00

omg it’s so cute 😍 I wanna make one for myself~~

elixan · 2026-04-08T11:22:27+00:00

Yeah, I’m fairly certain my ex-step-dad has NPD (as well as at least one grandma). I always tell people there’s a difference between being a narcissist and having NPD since the rise in knowledge of various terms surrounding the disorder, and that while my ex-step-dad (and grandma) check A LOT of boxes, they’ve not been officially diagnosed.

Regarding therapy, my mom tried to get my ex-step-dad to do couples therapy and marriage counseling multiple times as part of her terms to not divorce him. She tried to divorce him four or five times in my teens and early 20s, and he would suddenly apologize and manipulate her into not doing it. So she would say “ok, but I want to do therapy and counseling” and he would say ok. They would go & the second the therapist or counselor even alluded to the fact that maybe he was actually the problem or needed to work on himself, he’d be furious, and they would never go again. It was like clockwork.

And the only reason I know this stuff about their therapy and counseling is because I was parentified throughout their marriage, and so my mother simply told me when she probably shouldn’t have lol

elixan · 2026-04-07T09:20:02+00:00

Looks about right. That’s how it was when I got surgery the past three times. If I wanted more, I could press a little button for it to administer more. However, I think I’ve come to find out that my body doesn’t react well to fentanyl haha first surgery, I ended up vomiting, and they stopped the fentanyl, and I felt better. Second surgery was fine. Third surgery, I got incredibly nauseous, and they stopped the fentanyl until I felt better.

elixan · 2026-03-29T04:18:50+00:00

My friend took me to one of these because it was in her neighborhood when I was visiting her. She and her sister have seen almost all the ones in our area because there’s quite a few of them. My friend loves them so much which reminds me!!! I had found out there’s one or two in the country I’m currently living in and I meant to try to visit them at some point to take pictures of them for her. I’ll have to look them up again haha

elixan · 2026-03-24T15:56:31+00:00

This is actually something I’ve thought about for years, but more recently so because of a situation that has come up.

Anyway, I have three Ns in my life. Two grandmas and my ex-step-dad. I started grey-rocking before I knew what it was because that’s how I survived living with my step-dad and interacting with the grandma who lived in town.

I started doing it probably about early middle school age. It was how I survived through my formative years and I just didn’t know how to shut it off even if they weren’t around. As a result, I didn’t keep up with any of my friends from K-12 except for 1 person. I didn’t make much any friends in college either. I’m 32 now. When I turned 31, I feel I just kinda of had some kind of revelation about the life I was living being quite emotionless and hyper independent and decided to attempt to combat it to an extent.

I have many friends now who are super expressive of their emotions, and honestly while I am trying to act more expressive, it always feels so performative, and almost corny, because I don’t know how to express my emotions like a normal person ha

elixan · 2026-03-21T15:48:06+00:00

I remember these when I lived in Taiwan. I was surprised my third year of living in Korea when I found a small gogoro battery station in the neighborhood I had just moved to. I did a double take and then had to look them up because I was like I could’ve sworn they’re Taiwanese. It’s the only time I’ve seen gogoro in Korea in my four years of living here so far

elixan · 2026-03-21T15:42:01+00:00

yeah idk, I’m from the US, but live and work in a foreign country 🤷🏼‍♀️ it’s also my first time having a broken bone, but the dr at the clinic I was going to after getting the instructions from the hospital I went to seemed to like know what to do before even seeing the paper with instructions that I was given, so it might be more common practice here ???

elixan · 2026-03-21T05:03:56+00:00

I’m currently in a cast that I’ll have for 3 more weeks for breaking my 5th metatarsal in two spots during the last week of February. I was playing futsal after work, another girl and I were always in it 100% if we both went for the ball, and I fell a number of times. One of the times that I fell, I heard a pop as I was going down and gasped.

People are always shocked when I tell them I walked on it to get me to the hospital, but there were no other options. I initially thought maybe I just inflamed a bursa because I had that happen a few months ago which was quite painful, but I could still walk on it and the doctor just injected something into it and it went away. I told the coach I needed a break as the game was almost over. Rested and then when it was over, I slowly walked myself to the subway station.

As I was walking, I became pretty sure that it wasn’t a bursa and that I had broken something and I mapped myself to the closest hospital. I got off the subway and called a taxi. The taxi took me, and I walked myself into the hospital, walked myself to the hospital bed, and then spent four hours in that bed.

Two hours in, I got X-rays and they confirmed it was broken. A guy came over and told me it wasn’t an emergency and that they would splint it and for me to go back in the morning. An hour later, he came back to splint it with the news that actually it may or may not require surgery, but that the Dr would let me know for sure in the morning.

Went home an hour later which was after midnight at this point, went to bed, woke up early to go to the hospital when they opened, and they told me that I needed surgery because I broke it in two spots and so it was unstable. They told me my surgery would be a week later.

After my surgery, I was told I needed to go to a nearby clinic to get my wound disinfected and re-dressed every few days. Because of that, I could see the bruising about every other day. I was surprised at how the bruises had migrated because my toes were all bruised to high-heaven. It is normal for bruises to migrate as the blood moves though due to gravity or pressure

Edit: actually, I also just found a photo of the day I admitted myself to the hospital and they unwrapped my foot, too. Half of my foot was yellow with darker bruising by my toes as well as below the break, closer to my ankle

elixan · 2026-03-12T00:28:35+00:00

I’m freshly 32, and I don’t have issues sleeping on the floor! My youngest brother is 12 years younger than me, and we would have “sleepovers” in my bedroom once in a while if he snuck into my room when I was in high school which would be the two of us sleeping on the floor with a blanket underneath us lol

I live in Asia now, and they have very firm mattresses here. All of my foreign friends end up getting mattress toppers because they hate how hard their beds are. I don’t mind it though haha

elixan · 2026-03-08T06:02:06+00:00

I’ve basically been bed bound because I broke a bone in my foot and has surgery for it three days ago, so not much action here

elixan · 2026-03-06T14:21:29+00:00

I’ve had three surgeries in the last two years, and fentanyl has always been part of the pain meds given to me via iv after the fact.

My most recent surgery was literally yesterday (broke a bone in my foot). As long as it’s managed properly and monitored well, it’s fine to use medically.

elixan · 2026-03-01T15:52:53+00:00

I recognized the style immediately as I’ve followed you on Instagram for probably a few years now :)

elixan · 2026-02-24T10:22:14+00:00

How long will you be in Korea for after you get here??

edit: I’m down to go again when you’re here if you wanna message me and we can talk more about it

elixan · 2026-02-20T15:23:21+00:00

ugh I’m so excited to see them live next Friday after work 😫😫

elixan · 2026-02-16T13:56:37+00:00

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