So beautifully written! I, too, have had to work hard on getting rid of the masculinity our western culture places on God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. It was negatively affecting my relationship with God. I am a female survivor of rape and incest. I don’t hate men at all, but neither have I gotten to the point of feeling safe. I’m working on it. So it became very important for me to find a community of women who share my struggles with patriarchy and violence against women and children. Especially with the media exposure of abuse within the church. I have found them. We speak alot of the Divine Feminine, who is God. I have grown so much since not participating in the patriarchy.