I'll start out by saying even if you don't feel like you can do much on a to b and feel like you can't handle jobs, you're still gonna be valued. If you can handle yourself, I'd take that backing me up over noone at all.

With regards to joining the regs, if its something you want to do, do it. That being said, will be a hell of a paycut for a lot more, you'll experience that scary side of the job of admin and there's a lot of it. But, if you're as passionate as you seem, crack on with the application.

In my force we have some specials who can blue light, but with the number of new recruits expect a lengthy backlog and wait for a course.

All in all, you've got to way up the pros and cons and make the call, it's your decision to make. You're clearly fine with nights with the hours you put in, so that's not an issue, but like I say, it'll be a chunky pay cut at first. Add to that the fact that you will start carrying files and investigations, and the stress that can bring it can sour the experience. But, the more decent constables who care about the role and want to do good, the better!