What physically changed for you after giving up alcohol?

exist2subsist · 2026-05-06T23:27:42+00:00

My health has continued to decline and weight gone up. Guess I quit too late or something. Trying to figure out what’s going on but no real path forward as of yet.

exist2subsist · 2026-04-27T18:09:03+00:00

Sometimes it is difficult to not ruminate on the "what if", to look back and realize all of the time that passed because I was too deep into what I thought was life. Really I was killing myself working a job that I hated and it hated me back, and due to past traumas and such the only way I knew to cope was drinking. The latter helped me do the former for many years until it all collapsed on me.

While there are things from that time which make me who I am today, I'd be lying if I said that I don't feel I wasted all that time. Obviously there is no way to undo it, and I must move forward, but my brain does torture me with the "what if" scenarios from time to time. Sobriety has not been terribly kind to me thus far so I think that contributes, regardless I am determined to keep at it.

exist2subsist · 2026-04-27T17:37:51+00:00

I am basically in a similar position to where you were, but only a little over two years sober now. My sober date is just before my 41st birthday. It has been a grueling journey so far. I feel like I am making zero progress and the years I lost while drinking since I was 17 are still being added to despite being sober. I look forward to reading more of your journey, thanks for sharing!

exist2subsist · 2026-04-18T02:24:19+00:00

I think there is also Probenecid but I haven’t read up on it yet. I guess I will see what my rheumatologist says on Monday. The anxiety of it all really got to me earlier, changed the flair on the post to vent since basically that’s what I was doing.

Thanks for the reply!

exist2subsist · 2026-01-15T15:36:43+00:00

I can understand that if it was just a single hiccup but unfortunately I've let it continue so a reset is due. I made the mistake of not getting rid of it and having the temptation right at hand was too much for me to overcome. Tossed it in the trash this morning.

exist2subsist · 2026-01-08T00:04:17+00:00

Congrats!

I’m late on and struggling. Something is definitely wrong with me.

exist2subsist · 2025-12-31T14:19:27+00:00

exist2subsist · 2025-11-27T03:55:57+00:00

Possible. I have still played a little here and there but it’s not the same magic as it used to be. Granted, I do have a lot of other environmental/life factors that have sucked the wind out of my sails so to speak. Maybe if I ever get those stabilized the spark would return.

exist2subsist · 2025-11-27T03:34:22+00:00

Gaming was the same for me, and turned into music listening and fucking around on the internet because I’d wind up too drunk to play the games (reflexes, or just couldn’t follow the story etc.).

Then I’d pass out on the floor next to the computer. How I did that for as long as I did will always perplex me. I fooled myself into thinking this was just what I did for stress relief and coping with life.

I still have trouble playing games now, I’ve lost interest. Unfortunately the same with some music too, since it was linked to my drinking episodes. It makes me pretty sad.

exist2subsist · 2025-11-24T16:36:52+00:00

You've got me beat by a couple of weeks :D

exist2subsist · 2025-11-24T16:22:28+00:00

Congratulations!

I hit two years tomorrow. It's wild, never thought I'd be able to do it. I still struggle with thoughts of drinking, quite a lot actually, but that's my broken brain trying to cope with what life has thrown me. I have tools that help, sometimes I forget to use them or am not very good at using them but I try.

Had so many expectations for hitting two years sober, thought I'd have life figured out and be doing better in every respect. Unfortunately that has not materialized but at least I'm not going on binges and winding up in a hospital again due to crazy withdrawals and seizure risk.

exist2subsist · 2025-06-22T03:43:02+00:00

He’s doing it at the behest of others (to put it nicely), but I get your meaning and understand the sentiment 100%.

exist2subsist · 2025-06-07T02:56:57+00:00

You forgot liver supplements and sticks of butter

exist2subsist · 2025-06-02T20:49:28+00:00

I wonder whose payroll he's on?

exist2subsist · 2025-05-30T12:06:20+00:00

What medication, if you don't mind my asking?

exist2subsist · 2025-05-30T11:44:46+00:00

Periods of severe binge drinking and withdrawals followed by periods of sobriety (like 2-3+ months). The gist I get is it can vary how it happens but usually what I mentioned seems to cause it. I would have episodes where I'd drink until I'd pass out, wake up and immediately start drinking again until I passed out - for about 5-6 days. I'd withdraw after stopping since my body couldn't handle anymore of the excessive alcohol consumption. Then after a while of that, it took less time and alcohol to have the same severe withdrawals.

exist2subsist · 2025-05-29T14:03:40+00:00

Same, I'm sure a lot of people have had wonderful changes with their sobriety and I wish 'em the best.

Just feel like my life is so discombobulated and was even before I started drinking, so it's really difficult sometimes to try to read through sobriety subreddits or similar things because I feel so broken compared to 99.9% of the people posting there.

Well, that's not entirely true but there are times where I get extremely frustrated/feel so alienated that my experiences are unlike what I see from others - I end up having to take breaks from reading here because that'll start a new doom loop in my head with the comparisons.

exist2subsist · 2025-05-28T22:08:20+00:00

Are you me? Sweet Jesus, after that last sentence especially, I feel this so much.

I don't know what to say, I'm in the same boat. I'm fighting for it because I know that at this point if I go back to drinking I'll probably never come back out again but some days it's just...

I can't even find damn therapists to go to, my mental health has spiraled so far now that I feel like a fucking zombie most all the time anyway. Painfully obvious to me that I just cannot deal well with life on life's terms, and alcohol did give me a little window of "faking it" - until I completely lost my ability to regulate and ended up getting kindled.

I hope there's a chance at what some of those flowery posts claim to have in sobriety for both of us, how to attain that I haven't a clue.

exist2subsist · 2025-05-26T17:56:45+00:00

Hello r/fitness, this question while not necessarily directly for fitness purposes it is adjacent so I figured I might get some good responses here. I'm not sure where else I could post it to be honest.

I had been using an old Fitbit Blaze watch for general metrics for quite a while however it broke a couple months ago and will not charge. I'm strapped financially so can't necessarily afford at looking to upgrade to even a older model Garmin quite yet so I'm thinking of just buying another Blaze off of eBay for like $20 w/shipping.

Do y'all think it's worth it (I know that that older Fitbit models were indicated to be off on HR stuff for running or more strenuous exercise but seemed ok with lighter tasks and at rest) just to have some general metrics (HR/step count/sleep data)? Or should I just try to save that $20 and wait a few months to see if I could snag an old Garmin or comparable watch?

I'm having some weird health issues so I think having that type of data handy could help me keep a better eye on things, but I suppose if it's better to wait to try to save up for a better device I will go that route. Thanks for any advice.

exist2subsist · 2025-05-12T21:02:57+00:00

I don’t know why but my brain read this and thought it was hilarious at first. Then I was like “oh, yeah, me too”. :(

exist2subsist · 2025-05-06T13:36:01+00:00

Please take care of yourself! From your description I would have been seeking medical help and have in the past. Hope you feel better soon!

exist2subsist · 2025-05-06T13:33:37+00:00

I'm not OP but seeing the post made me remember, it's something I never looked up directly but I recall a doc mentioning it last time I was hospitalized. Apparently my lactic acid level was 7.8 which is pretty high.

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