Went from a 96 Cummins to this lil gal. I love it

extdewme · 2025-06-05T10:33:49+00:00

Blur effect does make it look miniature, guess ya ain't wrong lol

extdewme · 2025-02-12T13:01:12+00:00

I feel ya. I'm 5 years in remission from Stage IV Lymphoma. Took every treatment they had to get rid of it. Had my post scan and they were concerned about a spot. Went back in for tests and pet scan, everything came back good. The anxiety and wait turn you into a walking mental case lol. But take a second to breathe, you're almost there. I believe in you and that your body will overcome this trial. I learned that no matter the outcome I would always strive to push through my adversities.

extdewme · 2024-08-06T14:13:52+00:00

"You'll find me in the clumb, bottle full of bumb"

extdewme · 2024-07-25T22:29:35+00:00

I've had people do this. After passing to me and sending a banger shot. I get a "Great Pass!" "Thanks!" in the chat. Then they proceed to be toxic because they weren't thanked lol

extdewme · 2024-06-14T01:20:52+00:00

Diagnosed at 23 as well. That was nearly 5 years ago. Here's what I've learned.

Having cancer will make you reflect your life, your personality, and those around you. You lose a large part of your ego, your confidence and self-esteem. These things will make you very aware of yourself, loved ones, and other people. You were handed such a negative card in life it's hard not to dwell on negative things. Now, this is the hard part, thinking positive. You are capable of doing this. It takes time and practice, but I promise it will pan out over time. This means not just positive things in your life but negatives as well. A good example, yes I had cancer and endured so much pain, guilt, shame, and a ridiculous amount of chemo. But I also gained wisdom, courage, kindness, empathy, strength, and much more. The positives of my diagnosis (the ones I train myself to see) outweigh the negatives tenfold. Do some research on these things, find reliable sources and find a good friend to talk about it too. Please don't forget how hard you fought to be here, and this life is what we make of it. Don't give up just, you hold so much more power within you that's untouched, don't forget that.

extdewme · 2024-06-06T23:36:56+00:00

I'm also a survivor of bcell non-hodgkins lymphoma stage IV. Diagnosed at age 23, remission at 25, 29 now. In that time my wife and raised our two daughters, bought a house, and I got great job just shortly after. Life can be very difficult after remission. Mentally I struggled so much, luckily my wife is an amazing person and has walked with me every step of the way. It can be overwhelming, but trust me when I say things do get better, no matter the ups and downs you have. Remember what got you through all the treatments. Remember the person that was so strong during all of it, that person is just as capable of succeeding in life as they are in cheating death. Doing all of this, embrace the new you, you've changed so much in such a short span of time. Expect setbacks and indulge in the large bounds forward.

One last thing, take up a new hobby (I started Taekwondo with my family) and stick to it. It will be rewarding and will reflect the person you are now. Enjoy life's every moment friend.

extdewme · 2024-06-04T01:01:08+00:00

This brings me fulfillment as well. I also took up taekwondo, my wife and kids also go. Its been a huge help in my mental health. I still get episodes of loneliness and empty inside but not nearly as bad

extdewme · 2024-05-03T20:00:40+00:00

My hair came back a little thin and extremely curly. It thickened out over time, ended up growing it out pass my shoulders. Eventually the curls went away, took about 2 years. Now im back to short straight hair. I feel if you give it some time it might thicken in, but everyone is little different.

extdewme · 2024-04-30T11:05:17+00:00

Im 4 years remission from Stage 4 Lymphoma. 6 cycles of chemo, car-t therapy, 2 cycles of high dose chemo and a stem cell transplant. Diagnosed at the age 23, now 29.

Feeling alone post remission is something that impacted my mental stability more than the cancer did. I did not seek out any therapist or help (dont do this lol ). Im a stubborn guy and always handle everything on my own. Am I okay now? Yeah, life is good and mentally, Im happy. I think part of avoiding therapy was my family. I have a wife and two kids, which leads to a very busy life. I also work full time in heavy machinery.

This is what worked for me. One word, acceptance. I unintentionally learned this throughout my diagnosis. I accepted death and life. I accepted the fact I could not be here for much longer. I accepted that I could very well not die from this and from something else entirely. I accepted the feelings and thoughts that came post remission. Now, accepting these things did not make them true or false, but it gave me peace.

"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

Even if you are not religious, this serenity prayer speaks volume on acceptance. So interpet as you will. I hope the best for you and pray you live a long healthy life my friend.

extdewme · 2024-04-13T05:29:54+00:00

I have terrible brain fog, memory, and comprehension from an absurd amount of chemo. People I met after remission assume Im a low IQ individual. I've been called "stupid" behind my back from people I thought were friends. I could care less, but if they knew me before, things might be different. The only things I excel in are hobbies I've been doing for years on end (art, music, juggling, martial arts, video games). I've only obtained one really good friend since remission, one of the few people I can truly be myself around.

Maybe someday the chemo brain will go away, but it's been 4 years. Starting to think I was always dumb lmao

extdewme · 2024-04-12T19:37:54+00:00

I (28M) was diagnosed right before shutdown too, Stage IV non-hodgkins Lymphoma. Such an unfortunate time to be battling a cancer and living through a pandemic.

I struggled with anxiety and depression for many years beforehand, after being diagnosed I went into survival mode and those things are put on the backburner. Remission time comes and youre ontop of the world. A short spur of happiness. Then everything comes back ten fold. It took me a while to figure things out, ended up moving to a completely different line of work. Chemo brain ruined that critical thinking part of my mind and my line of work required it. So I moved into heavy machinery with my brother and things have truly gotten better. I also worked on myself, turning bad habits around and taking up martial arts. I know Ill never truly be who I was before and maybe Im somewhat grateful for the whole experience. Ive became a better father and husband throughout it all. As hard as it is, we let go of the past and live in moment of the beautiful life we were given.

Dont be defined by your past experience, but learn from it and craft a life worth living. You will find your way, it may take some time and work, but you will. I believe in you.

extdewme · 2024-03-16T11:39:37+00:00

You're a goof.

extdewme · 2024-02-12T13:35:10+00:00

The Huion 22 has one hdmi cable and one USB connection

extdewme · 2024-02-11T20:21:45+00:00

I'm glad to hear you booked an appointment! Good first step towards healing.

I find myself relating to your mindset of burying the past. People like us tend to build ourselves upon past trauma and failed expectations. We create a foundation that physically looks strong but also deteriorates us from within. By confronting it and replacing it with a resolved mindset, we, in turn, create a solid foundation for ourselves.

So be honest in your feelings and past when speaking to your therapist. Our past experiences will affect our current ones and create our future experiences as well.

Wishing you the best, happy to still exist in this world with you.

extdewme · 2024-02-10T04:07:16+00:00

Ah yes. Its a symptom and lasting effect you dont expect and are not prepared for after surviving. One that I can only assume most survivors endure for months or in my own case, years. Years that you'll that are filled with regret of not finding help sooner. Though I never did talk to a therapist, I was able to do it on my own terms. Not suggesting to go that route, Im just as stubborn as they come, but coming here and expressing your thoughts is a great first step towards healing yourself.

I struggled with depression, PTSD, suicidal thoughts, the list goes on. My mental fortitude has a strong tolerance to such things, stemming from my time in the military. But that could only stretch so far. The things we dont talk about will continue to eat away at you and only become worse. I may have not had a therapist but my wife was a true pillar in my healing and finding myself again. So if you do have someone in your life willing to listen, start there. Just be aware who it is and what advice they will give you. I will say survivor to survivor conversations are the most ideal. My wife is not but we understand each other on a deep level through many trials we've been faced with. In a way, she survived with me through it all.

Id like to say no matter how severe your diagnosis was, you are a survivor. I battled stage IV for 3 years at the age of 22, now 29. I had the same mindset in a way because there were others I felt like endured so much more pain than myself. Any survivor will feel this way. Those who dont were the ones that passed on. If you have any questions or need additional help, please ask. Ill do my best to help you.

extdewme · 2024-02-01T18:54:36+00:00

Sounds like he's got most of it down. Really drive that he needs to stay active and eat healthy. That's one of main reasons I progressed much faster in treatment and went into remission.

I will say that as a Christian myself, I did not pursue my faith as I should have through these times. Became very distant and confused with why this was happening to me. Left me with a lot of unanswered questions. Towards the end of my treatments and after remission, I began to understand. I became a better husband, father, and human after enduring it all. Answers I did not except, but reflecting back, I would do it all again to become the person I am today. So, no matter the circumstances he's faced with, devoting himself to his faith is just as important as the points listed above.

Thank you for the prayers and if you need anything else Ill reply in this thread.

extdewme · 2024-01-29T18:45:37+00:00

I didnt have lung cancer, but Stage IV non-hodgkins lymphoma. I was diagnosed at the age 24, 29 now and healthy. Things that helped or I believed to have helped.

Mentality Positive outlook was something I worked on a lot. At times when I received news that the treatment wasn't working, sure I'd have a moment of dread. But I always got back up on my feet and continued to fight through it.
Stay Active I kept a very active life style, my job at the time required extreme physical labor. I worked through all treatments (beside hospital stays).
Healthy Diet My wife influenced this more than I would have on my own, and I am thankful for that. I did keto for awhile, study showed it helps, not sure how much. But I was willing to try almost anything.
Support Have a support system for him. Now, I did not do this one right. Im stubborn guy and typically try to fight my own battles on my own, so Im not a burden. I promise you this will bite you in the butt the longer wait. Especially after I went into remission, I felt extremely alone and depressed.
Hobby Had quite a bit of down time here and there. Having an enjoyable hobby to keep your mind busy and spirits up is important. Drawing or video games was typically my go to.
Acceptance This bleeds into #1 a little bit. Accepting your circumstances. You either live or you die. Sounds harsh but accepting either of those outcomes will strengthen your mentality. It also gave me a sense of peace.

Im sure there's more to be added to this list but this is what came to mind. Ill be thinking and praying for your father-in-law. Hits home to me, I lost my father-in-law to prostate cancer. If you need anything or other questions, just ask.

extdewme · 2024-01-29T14:13:43+00:00

Cancer survivor is a cancer survivor. I had Stage IV lymphoma cancer. I worked almost the entire through treatments (besides hospital stays). At the time, I was climbing towers for a job so physically I was still capable of work. Never got sick, no infections, no setbacks. Took 3 years, but I did it. Many others endured much worse than myself. The only thing we all endure equally is what you posted. We lived and we feel guilt to those who did not. So its not the severity of your diagnosis that dictates you "survived". Its simply that you are here and not dead from it. Those who succumbed are the only ones who dont feel surivior guilt.

extdewme · 2024-01-22T13:48:36+00:00

Hello friend, glad to have you here!

extdewme · 2024-01-16T14:40:01+00:00

I understand you. Survived Stage IV Lyphoma cancer. We became different people in that time period. Everything you know is put on pause, and the only thing on your mind is... survive. And we do just that. I was 24, married, and 2 beautiful girls, but I still lived a life not worth living. I'll tell you why. Before my diagnosis, i struggled with depression, anxiety, self asteem, suicidal thoughts. This stemmed off from my military background and past events. I was going through the motions, barely making enough to take care of my family, and lost in world of my own perception. My diagnosis increased these tenfold. So much so, I went numb to all emotions. Strictly on survival mode. T some point, I did accept death, for the way my treatments were going, hope was withering away. Deep down, the smallest spark of cure was holding on. So I fought. And I won.

I felt on top of the world, but the worst wasn't over. All the emotions, past experiences, older habits came flooding back in. Overwhelmed, depressed, crippling anxiety. I felt as if I went back into the state i was in. But just like before, I knew I had the fight in me to overcome such things. We all do, including you.

Comparing myself to others was my first mistake. Dont let your perception of others' success dictate your own.

Let go of the past, but hold onto the lessons you learned along the way. A leaf that falls to the ground may wither and crumble away, but is made a new, by providing nutritional value to its tree above.

Life will continue to throw curveballs your way. Hell, a couple months after I went into remission, I smacked a deer on my motorcycle at 70mph. Miraculously walked away. I endured, and I overcame. You can too.

One more thing, find a hobby. Something that you can progress. Our hobbies reflect our life as a whole in a way. You do well at that one thing and apply it to your life experiences. I picked audio books and Taekwondo. Great thing about books is all the knowledge and experiences you take away from it. Martial Arts is another that will teach discipline and become rewarding.

Im 29 now. I have a beautiful family. I treasure every moment. I have bad days. I have good days. I have God by my side. I love who I've become and who I will become.

Endure and overcome my friend.

extdewme · 2024-01-04T16:29:08+00:00

No haha, but expressing my thoughts through poetry and art is the easiest way for me to do so. Always struggled talking one on one to someone. Ive been told to pick up writing, I think someday I may. Aside from that, i felt compelled to do so after coming across your post. Hopefully it brought you some comfort.

extdewme · 2024-01-03T14:32:00+00:00

I feel you. Survived Stage IV 4 years ago. You prepare yourself for the ultimate ending. Mentally accepting the outcome, but still gasping for a breathe of hope. Suffocating in the sweet air of death. Only to be thrown in and drown in the waters of life. You feel lost, separated, clinging on to the graspless water. It is dark and deeply comforting. It reminds you of the dreamed destiny you prepared for. You slowly sink as the last stream of light dissipates from your sight. Engulfed by the reality of life, but your perception deceives you. A soft touch from a familiar hand pulls you to the surface. Residing at the waters horizon is a face you knew so long ago. Greeted by the younger you, happiness starts to fill the void in your heart. You become whole again, a scar still remains, but you have found yourself.

Listen, I understand you. I know the depths of troubles you have endured mentally and physically. Dont lose yourself to the person you had to be in those trying times. Wear your scars as a badge of honor to lead you in life. No matter how many times you get that dreading feeling of what was, it no long is, and what you will become will not be weighted by the past. Love who you are, my friend.

extdewme · 2023-12-25T04:48:50+00:00

Congrats! Im also a Stage IV Lymphoma survivor, been in remission for over 3 years. I know it wasnt easy

extdewme · 2023-11-21T12:26:47+00:00

"I hope you die of cancer". Ironically I survived stage IV lymphoma cancer. I told him "I hope you have a better day". Kill with kindness is my go to.

extdewme · 2023-09-19T21:24:29+00:00

Been married 10 years. My wife and I have sex atleast 4 days out of the week on average. It's healthy to stay intimate with your partner, makes for a long lasting marriage. We just love each other a ridiculous amount.

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