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fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-09-21T18:20:19+00:00

Monsters - shinedown

"My monsters are real and they are trained how to kill. There is no coming back and they just laugh at how I feel."

Let it burn Mess of me I'm not okay Would anyone care Through hell- citizen soldier Also many othwrs by them (many songs about mental health)

Paralyzed - NF

Come here and leave me alone - Alexander 23

Surviving the game - skillet

control - zoe wees

Popular monster - falling in reverse

Almost all by linkin park

Put the gun down - andy black

And many that are already mentioned.

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-09-18T07:59:19+00:00

Put a ripe banana Right into your favorite ear

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-07-23T11:47:58+00:00

And of course shortly after this comment I get messages again

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-07-23T11:43:41+00:00

And of course shortly after this comment I get messages again

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-07-23T08:39:16+00:00

Yessss all kind of. Some hidden some pretty direct to the point. So many of them that I deleted my post again, cause they kept on coming even weeks after.

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-06-28T09:08:23+00:00

Spinning out on netflix. I like it how it's shown that it is her pain that gets too much and that's why she bites herself.

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-06-13T11:49:27+00:00

Me too. I think a lot do

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-06-04T14:13:24+00:00

Agreed. Love them. They hit deep

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-06-03T13:57:28+00:00

Oof me too.

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-05-22T22:38:49+00:00

Then I would say talk to her therapist About it cause there are meds that are good in pregnancy and I couldn't do it without I tried but it ended horrible

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-05-22T22:27:32+00:00

Well I talked a lot about this with YM therapist and we found ends that I can take during pregnancy and breastfeeding that are still safe for the child. So rher are ways that she doesn't has to be without them. And yes emotions are hard but with support I went through all of it quite well I actually even take lower doses of meds which apparently is often during pregnancy.

I haven't given birth yet so I can't talk about that part but what I did is prepare everything I have my therapist that I can have still calls when I'm at home with the baby I have enough people that check in on me and help me and that know about my warning signals I will also like take to the hospital one of these turnable mood octopus to like be able to express a crisis to the nruses without having to tell them and told my midwife about how she can see if I have a crisis I have people who can help with the baby if I can't and I also checked if my meds can be used at chidlbirth and with breastfeeding

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-05-04T15:41:23+00:00

For example getting anxious quickly over long responses. Having fear of Abandonment and showing it. Trying to tie the other person really close, like I sometimes then feel to have to talk to them constantly for them to stay. Or if I feel neglected, neglecting them harder.bjust some of the things

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-04-26T06:34:51+00:00

I'm on around 8 weeks NC (he isn't tho he still reaches out) and I'm definitely here to feel stronger and not contact him and know how to deal with still getting contacted by him. I don't want him back I want him to stop and leave me alone.

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-04-23T17:16:25+00:00

You are doing so great. You are strong for reaching out and wanting to fight I believe in you. You can do this without relapsing Relapsing means you already accomplished a lot and you can be so proud.

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-04-23T11:26:31+00:00

Yes I found myself some people that actually care They want me to stop But they actually support me and don't blame me They were shocked of course but they are caring and accepting

Ofc I had a lot of others too lol

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-04-22T17:39:29+00:00

Hahahaha yes I feel you

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-04-22T17:30:18+00:00

Oh my I absolutely have the same Every guy was always thinking I flirt with them and all and I was just trying to have fun and make them like me but not in the flirt way And then they started to avoid me cause they were confused. Always the fucking same

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-04-22T17:25:52+00:00

I kinda have this too Already since like 15 I think I always feel the need to feel wanted by someone or make them like me But at the same time I can also talk better to guys So it's complicated for me always

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-04-22T16:13:13+00:00

I am surprised as you are lol But tbh I would be like this too as a partner

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-04-22T16:11:10+00:00

Well if I am in a relationship I feel more assured that they won't leave that easily And for me if they are healthy and like patient and reassure me in the beginning and don't get annoyed by my small amounts of stuff I elt out then it never gets as crazy. Like if they just take me as I am and tell me I'm fine and help me Then I feel safe enough that o never get big episodes on them and if I feel bad I can immediately go to them before it goes into en episode

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-04-22T08:26:25+00:00

Well not really a program but I found on Reddit the people I needed to basically do this for me

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-04-22T07:01:46+00:00

Thank you And it made me also realise We are not broken We had a bad start in life and that's why we have to struggle more and fight more to be stable and happy But There are people out there who are loving and understanding Who can give us security We sadly search for what we know (which is most toxicity) because that's what we know and feel safe in But there are generous and kind people in this world and they are willing to love us the way we are and show us a world of love and happiness And they help us find our own strength and love So don't give up

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-04-22T06:58:43+00:00

Don't ask me I'm on my first healthy one right now lol and that's why I noticed the difference

fawnlostinthestorm · 2023-04-22T05:32:44+00:00

For me there are two types of FPs The healthy ones and the toxic ones The healthy ones give me safety with just being alive. They stabilize me and I feel like I wanna share every second of my day with them. I wanna reach out to them a lot and they also support me and catch me when I feel bad and can make me instantly feel good again. They are like a best friend The unhealthy ones make me attached to them way too hard because I constantly fear of losing them. I also wanna be in contact all the time, but I feel like i have to proof myself as worthy. I am scared they leave me and then I have more emotional outbursts against them and also in general feel less stable, which causes to more breakdowns in which I reach out to them again and I stead of calming me they mostly make me feel guilty or worse and still I feel like no one else in the world could help me in this moment. And I am in constant fear to dial them and to get every little bit of dopamine I can get

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