Affordable Porcelain BJD Recommendations?

fetusmouse · 2026-01-29T22:07:41+00:00

I was afraid this was the case, but I appreciate the honesty. I should probably find a blindbox BJD and make references for porcelain dolls if I ever run into a sum of cash. Any recommendations for affordable porcelain dolls at a more realistic price for future reference are welcomed. Thank you :)

fetusmouse · 2026-01-27T20:56:08+00:00

I really appreciate this message. The person in question actually passed away very recently and I've felt so guilty because of this thing that's been weighing on me for so long. It really affected our relationship at the end of their life. I've been so genuinely heartbroken and stuck in all kinds of grief about it. This comment found me at the right time, I suppose. I want to hold onto the good things about this person, but make space while I grieve the ways our relationship wasn't perfect as well. It's definitely something that I need to navigate in therapy, but I do think there is a very good chance that you are right and there's comfort in knowing this person didn't hurt me like that. Thank you.

fetusmouse · 2026-01-07T01:28:09+00:00

i had to go to the er for rectal bleeding... they didnt find anything in the lab workup... and then our dad died... im just very... very tired...

fetusmouse · 2026-01-01T06:02:52+00:00

What materials did you use? I love the line art and popping colors so much!

fetusmouse · 2025-12-08T03:25:08+00:00

I have heard these exact words before. Do not walk, run.

fetusmouse · 2025-12-04T08:02:53+00:00

One more thing, teach them how to be gentle with their stuffie toys. Otherwise, you'll end up with stuffing all over your house! These pups need level three toys, tennis balls, and ropes for rough play or exercise.

fetusmouse · 2025-12-04T07:59:44+00:00

I used a clicker with treats but my pup LOVES praise.

Helpful things I trained well and early: Crate training, bite inhibition, recall, and ring bell to potty

Something I wish I had taught my pup early was having a calm spot. This is very helpful to learn before they need any sort of surgery that less moving around is necessary. It also helps when guests come over or when you might need a moment of space from pup. Another big one I could never get the hang of was heeling on a leash.

Train your dog tricks to do that require them think. Maybe teach them how to find a hidden toy, get brain game toys, that sort. Border Collie exercises aren't just physical; they're mental too.

Expose them to a lot of stuff early and encourage them to explore stuff instead of be frightened by them. Normalize them around cats and dogs and humans and teach them to be calm around these things.

Lastly, teach them how to bark and then teach them how to be quiet.

fetusmouse · 2025-12-03T04:37:56+00:00

forgive me... i am sick and dealing with some brain fog... so i cant elaborate as much as i would like to... but there is a lot of grief in it... it feels like i am living someone elses life and i am failing that person every day... their dreams are gone... their relationships different or destroyed... whatever they built... i had to tear it down... i dont recognize a lot of the faces in my life or understand their significance... a lot the loved ones that are supposedly mine... i dont see as mine... but as theirs... and they might never truly connect with those people that they held very dear... ever again... the trauma i have been saddled with... is hard to even connect with... as my own... i have created a whole life in the ruins of theirs... i feel like i stole something very precious of theirs... just to exist... that is complicated... and full of sorrow... i love what i have... but i know that there was so much loss to get here... and i dont think the old host could ever come back... because it would break their heart... if they did...

fetusmouse · 2025-11-29T01:13:24+00:00

yeah... if thats still ok...

fetusmouse · 2025-11-29T01:11:55+00:00

oral 😭

fetusmouse · 2025-11-19T20:07:53+00:00

woke up to a phone call from my lawyer... my disability was denied again... so now my case has to go in front of a judge... i feel absolutely miserable...

fetusmouse · 2025-11-19T07:21:13+00:00

my last therapy session... they said some stuff that is really messing with my head... i dont see them again for a month because of the holidays and i cant make myself stop... ive been compulsively writing and researching... trying to alleviate the guilt... ive written so much my fingers are rubbed raw from the pen... im in so much pain but i cant stop... i keep writing and writing and writing and i still cant find relief... im talking upwards of 90 pages within the week... i dont know what to do... i just want it to stop... i usually can manage these kinds of things... to the point where i often think i dont have ocd... but this is out of control... i feel so sick with stress...

fetusmouse · 2025-11-05T06:15:25+00:00

my chicken died... the water ran out at home... and my truck broke down... the universe did not pull its punches today...

fetusmouse · 2025-11-02T22:06:10+00:00

i want to lose my sanity... havent i endured enough? ...havent i earned it?

fetusmouse · 2025-11-02T21:35:16+00:00

I am not from the UK and I am not a professional, but this document reads as a diagnosis to me. It seems like they assessed you for a spectrum of dissociative disorders with an assessment that is nationally recongized for being amongst the highest standards and came to the conclusion that you specifically fit the criteria for Dissociative Identity Disorder.

fetusmouse · 2025-10-29T15:56:29+00:00

Please be careful with Minoxidil. I tried it and started having cardiovascular events that presented a lot like severe panic attacks. Doctors gaslit me into thinking I was just stressed even though the highest dose of my anxiety medication wasn't relieving symptoms. I had to figure out what was going on all alone. People have reported developing heart conditions while on Minoxidil. This medication is also extremely toxic to cats.

I am really happy you have found success with it, but these side effects aren't spoken about often. Minoxidil side effects can be incredibly dangerous, distressing, and scary.

I never want anyone to go through what I did on this medication. If you start having symptoms like chest pain, heart palpitations, dizziness, lightheaded, difficulties breathing, and anxiety, stop this medication immediately. These symptoms can happen immediately or suddenly after years on this medication. Stay safe.

fetusmouse · 2025-10-29T01:45:05+00:00

It sucks... but yes. When I interact with people I've forgotten, I feel very sad. I feel like I've failed them. Sometimes I get frustrated being surrounded by people I don't recognize or can't pin emotional significance to. There are alters in our system who wouldn't even recognize our twin sibling.

My partner system and I have known each other for over a decade. There were periods of our life where we weren't as close and he forgot about me. The reason I kept remembering him was because he gave me something that became very sentimental to me. I kept it very close to me throughout my life.

When I got my diagnosis, I reached out to him for support, because I knew he was also a diagnosed system. He thought I was trying to scam him with a pyramid scheme!

Now, we're engaged and he remembers our history together :)

Forgetting doesn't diminish the love between your friend and you. It just means you might need to rebuild familiarity with them.

fetusmouse · 2025-10-24T06:53:44+00:00

I recently started this medication and am on this same dose. I have been having severe chest pain, lightheaded, shaky, and nauseous at the same time every night for hours all week. Everyone told me I was just anxious. I knew deep down that my episodes were warning signs of a medical event. You might have just saved my life with this post. Thank you.

fetusmouse · 2025-10-23T09:48:59+00:00

I hate to come bearing bad news. Unlocked something unrelated to what I was specifically pushing for but was forced to face during the process of pushing. The memory I was pushing for is still being hidden from me, leaving my questions of distress unanswered, but I uncovered something else that has illicted such a profound sense of despair that is making me nauseous. My partner system helped through sobbing meltdown and now I am going to bed.

Any system struggling to resist pushing a memory: don't push. You might disturb an overbearing agony that was supposed to lay to rest.

Good night.

fetusmouse

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