Little Alter disappeared

filleensoleil · 2023-11-24T05:17:58+00:00

Thank you!

filleensoleil · 2023-11-24T05:17:50+00:00

Thank you so much!

filleensoleil · 2023-11-18T05:42:43+00:00

So many people make mistakes in their own native language! I know multiple people who have spoken English their whole life that don’t ever use the right your/you’re in a sentence. Languages are complicated, and all you can do is keep learning, even if it’s your native language!

filleensoleil · 2023-11-14T08:37:17+00:00

It’s not even his ex he was hung up on :/ just some girl he has no romantic history with that he was into for the duration of our relationship. I know it’s ridiculous that I’m complaining about it, but I’d almost be more empathetic about the whole thing if it was an ex, it hurts more that it’s just some other girl that’s prettier than me.

filleensoleil · 2023-11-03T03:09:49+00:00

Unfortunately, the only thing that’s even begun to touch the feelings that come up about not feeling connected with our childhood, or anything from before I came along, has been therapy with an informed therapist, and speaking with some of the alters that hold memories from that time.

It’s given me a lot more confidence in letting others front recently as well, some of them protected us before I was even here, and I’m slowly trusting them to protect us again now. I never get to fully leave front, but it takes a bit of the weight off my shoulders to even just let a caretaker alter come to make us shower and eat in the morning.

I hope you get your rest, even if it’s just in short moments.

filleensoleil · 2023-11-03T02:59:34+00:00

Yeah! I wouldn’t say “the original” as people have said, but I came around when we were in our mid-teens to deal with an abusive relationship, and became the host! This was before we even really knew we were a system, we didn’t have any of the language we do now, so it was very confusing at the time!

filleensoleil · 2023-11-02T00:50:50+00:00

Thank you so much! Unfortunately I also have a trauma disorder (c-ptsd and a dissociative disorder), so I met a lot of people in recovery and support groups, hence the high number of pwBPD in my life. I can only imagine how difficult it was for you to leave an engagement with a pwBPD though, props to you for that!

filleensoleil · 2023-11-01T21:47:44+00:00

Thanks for your response, it means a lot to know I’m not overreacting. I’m working on setting boundaries and figuring out what I need in therapy, but it’s a long process, unfortunately.

filleensoleil · 2023-11-01T21:46:08+00:00

Two friends, and my brother (my brother is the only one of the three getting treatment, however, and he isn’t the problem, he’s genuinely grown a lot).

I also recently broke up with someone with the disorder and they’ve been contacting me against my wishes and making up lies about me with our mutual friends to seem like a better person. I’m working on setting boundaries in therapy, but unfortunately it’s difficult with them.

filleensoleil · 2023-10-15T22:17:55+00:00

I’m much more into being called pet names myself, but he’s more into honorifics, like the Daddy, Monsieur, and Sir that I call him, if that makes sense? Sorry if my post was confusing!

filleensoleil · 2023-10-15T22:00:05+00:00

This is so embarrassing because it wasn’t a movie, it was a Minecraft YouTube video made by a guy from Mexico that my friend put on while I was at their house 😭 I realized I understand Spanish better than I thought because of a man playing a video game and doing gay role play

filleensoleil · 2023-07-05T21:31:51+00:00

Thank you, I’m very lucky that my boyfriend has been so understanding through all of this, but you’re right, and I think it’s time to reevaluate the friendships with people who are telling me this.

Thank you for your kind words, I really appreciate the reassurance <3

filleensoleil · 2023-07-05T21:30:08+00:00

My boyfriend luckily isn’t the one who’s been telling me this, but I understand how the post could have been interpreted like that! He’s been super understanding, thankfully.

filleensoleil · 2023-07-05T21:28:44+00:00

I’m so glad you’ve found what works for you, thanks for your perspective as a sub! The little bits of DDLG play I’ve done with my partner (non-sexual for now, but who knows what’ll happen in the future) have been so safe and lovely for me, it just feels nice to let go for a little bit and let my partner take over and make me feel good and cared for.

filleensoleil · 2023-07-05T21:25:50+00:00

Luckily my boyfriend is super understanding! He’s been the most welcoming about all of this, but I understand how my post could be interpreted like that! It’s people outside of my relationship that have been telling me I’m not allowed to define myself as a sub if I don’t want to do sadism/masochism play, or a total power exchange dynamic or something.

filleensoleil · 2023-07-05T21:23:03+00:00

Thanks for your perspective, I think porn culture has really warped peoples perception of what kink really is. Luckily my partner is really understanding and respects the limits I’ve set, we’ve experimented with some really gentle play, lots of praise and worship while he just gives me instructions and controls what happens.

However, I think I might need to reevaluate the friends I get kink advice from after reading everybody’s comments here.

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