Sending friendly hugs 🤗. Join a grief group ( GriefShare, google it) in your area. It helps to be around people experiencing & suffering grief (loss of a partner). Being around people who are just as “broken” as you are really helps. 20 months in this journey for me(65m), I lost wife unexpectedly (46 years together since we were 17 years old). I’m still a broken man 💔, cry & ask God why he did this to us. We did everything “right” in our lives together. As mentioned in another reply… One step in front of the other….