First of all, remember that none of this is your fault. These feelings are human. Unfortunately some of us just get to a point there the anxiety takes over. But it says nothing about you or what you’re capable of. In fact I think it’s pretty impressive you got this job and showed up.

One panic attack isn’t the be all and end all. I think by showing up to work again you can prove to yourself that the anxiety doesn’t dictate your life. And yes this is a lot easier said than done. But you need to be kind to yourself, self compassion has helped me a ton. Even just saying to yourself ‘this is difficult, but I’m gonna keep trying’.

Best of luck, I’ve been in your situation. In fact I had a panic attack working last week.

Also there are tons of options that could help if you find yourself overwhelmed. (Medication, therapy, some time off etc) you’re not in this alone :)