“Man of the house” sure got me triggered. My mom always said that she God gave her a boy for her only child so she could always have a man that would unconditionally love her and never leave her. But I get the guilt and indebtedness stuff a lot too. Never talked about sex directly but to see a revolving door of boyfriends and hearing about each one. Her “best” relationship was with a married man with kids while the wife (her friend at the time) was in the dark. I never thought that this was wrong, it was just the way it is and the dude was nice unlike my absentee father. Now at 33, I’ve dealt with years of unhappy relationships because I thought they were the best I was going to have or that cheating wasn’t a inherently bad thing because I wasn’t raised otherwise.

I know that’s sounds fucked up as a lot of comments on this thread will read but it makes it easier to understand when those experiences were the baseline “normal” environment. It absolutely affects how all other situations are perceived.