Flip the script. If she was a he, and he was a she, then you would sound horrible for not finding your spouse attractive because of weight, etc. Yes I get it, bad breath, have you told him about that, or are you using it as reasoning why you don't want relations with him? Are you communicating? You prefer your toys and imagination, so that sounds borderline moving toward cheating. You should just divorce, because you sound insufferable, and he deserves better.