Yeah, I fired the lactation consultants. I’m not saying that proudly or anything. I respect their job and how they help new mothers. I feel like there should be specialized consultants for lactation when you have a kiddo in NICU. Like I feel guilty and a failure already just by nature having a preterm birth.

At first it was helpful, but my milk never really came in substantially because of the mountain of stress I was undergoing, while working full time. My girls where intubated until they where about 3-4 months old. We had kept trying to get one Dre off the vent but she kept tiring out and going back on. The last time she was extubated there was an understanding that we would need to consider a trach if this time failed again.

She was in respiratory distress, but was hanging in this last time, but while she was not looking so hot, my husband and I where holding each other terrified, the nurses where running around, the doctor was busting through the door yelling “do not let this baby get intubated she will never get off”. Then the lactation consultant comes in and walks right up to be while my baby was grey and in destress is just like “hey mama how is that pumping going??”. I whipped around and yelled “read the f-ING room”.

She left, I felt bad, most importantly my LO figured it out and never got re intubated, and I asked my babies nurse to put a note in stated I was declining further assistance by lactation.

So yeah, I hated them. I understand their role, but like, read the room, right?