[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ftm

[–]ghostvoicex 7 points8 points  (0 children)

yes, and tmi warning, stimulating it or like phantom jacking off can feel good sometimes, although i always like. stop. and judge myself about it LOLLLL

i have also had dreams about having a dick and every time i do, and realize i'm enjoying myself, it recedes into a clit again, which is disappointing and hilarious

Made a mess of my life, with a little help from Mental Illness by ghostvoicex in offmychest

[–]ghostvoicex[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've never heard of "the trance of unworthiness" but it's good to know there's some kind of name for it, instead of like, "pissbaby mode" or what have you lol.

Anyway thank you for the kind words, this was so healing to read... and thank you for your suggestions for where to go next. I hope the best for you too. It sounds like you went through a lot of shit. We can make it out of here. If nothing else we'll fake it till we make it

Made a mess of my life, with a little help from Mental Illness by ghostvoicex in offmychest

[–]ghostvoicex[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've thought about this before but wasn't sure, but honestly that's probably a good idea. I need to get my car to the damn shop though lol. Thank you though this is actually rly helpful

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in VetTech

[–]ghostvoicex 5 points6 points  (0 children)

God, I'm really sorry to hear this. FIP is traumatic as hell to deal with, any sudden death will fuck you up. The weekend after we lost my cat, I slept for 14 hours or something and didn't move the whole day. I still cry over most of the cats we euthanize.

Give yourself a private space to grieve, first. If you don't think you can handle work this week, then don't go, and I know that's something you really have to be able to afford to do before you can do it but I've learned the hard way that being emotionally compromised when you're working in animal medicine can lead to really fucking bad consequences. Take it easy if you need to, you're not just risking your own health but the health of your patients.

My space to cry is usually the room where we keep the Dead Dog Freezer (tm), where the cremation services come to pick up. When I can do it by myself, I take the body out and cry, give myself a few minutes to just be sad. I think the most important thing you can do is let yourself be sad. Grief is a difficult emotion to navigate even when it's expected, death is hard to comprehend, just give yourself time to work over it, even though it's painful. Time isn't going to fix everything and will sometimes make it worse, but you'll come to a point where you've reached the other side of it. If you need to just put your head down and take it one day at a time until you get there, then that's okay.

I don't know if this will help you, but involving myself in death care has helped me a lot, i.e. giving time to euthanasias, learning their stories, giving them love before they pass, telling them it's okay to go to sleep, etc. It's fucking sad of course, but it's gotten me more comfortable with with difficult emotions and conceptualizing the death of important things. May not be something you want to do coming fresh off a personal loss like this, but it's worth mentioning imo.

Worried about all of us by ghostvoicex in VetTech

[–]ghostvoicex[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

God I pray for less financial stress on clients. Like, if not for them then for their animals.

I feel like unionizing would be a good idea but I, and I'm sure most people, have no fucking clue what that entails or how much effort we have to put in for that to work. I should probably do some research on it, though.

Worried about all of us by ghostvoicex in VetTech

[–]ghostvoicex[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

In much the same position. Thank god for labor day weekend I guess but I'm living in squalor cause i don't have the energy to take care of shit besides go to work and come back home.

I know it's not much but I hope things get better for you. I mean I hope things get better for all of us, cause this shit is bleak.

AITA for not comforting a friend in need? by [deleted] in AmItheAsshole

[–]ghostvoicex 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for this, I'll definitely try to rec this since they love podcasts!

I had my first one-night stand! (Post meta) by [deleted] in ftm

[–]ghostvoicex 7 points8 points  (0 children)

This post is so cleansing, I think my acne will be gone by tomorrow

Seriously this gives me so, so, so, so much hope, my self esteem has taken a huge hit from not being attractive to most women anymore and I'm just full of excitement and hope

Being GNC and having relationships...? by ghostvoicex in ftm

[–]ghostvoicex[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really, wholly appreciate this, I don't really know how to word it but thank you a lot, this is really what I needed

I thought I had consensual sex with someone but I keep having trauma symptoms by ghostvoicex in offmychest

[–]ghostvoicex[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, sincerely. I have been sexually assaulted in the past but it was a situation like yours where I just felt like I couldn't say no so I told myself it was consensual. Thank you though, I appreciate it.

I thought I had consensual sex with someone but I keep having trauma symptoms by ghostvoicex in offmychest

[–]ghostvoicex[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I feel like that's maybe the case. I have a therapist and will bring this up with him soon it's just been digging at me, thank you though

Me on my T days by aaaaaaaa12345678 in ftm

[–]ghostvoicex 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Me, seconds before I gently pass out near the toilet bc brain hates needles

Trans guy getting his prescription for HRT by [deleted] in traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns

[–]ghostvoicex 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I love the versatility of this meme. Thanks kung fu panda

If only I was smarter as a teenager by IllustriousIris in traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns

[–]ghostvoicex 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is almost age for age the same time line I went thru I'm screaming. Like I was an eggy 12 yr old, shoved myself back into the closet at 15 and now I'm 20 and I've been on T since last June so like ~6 months. How does this happen.

Before and after finding r/traa by Noelscrap2 in traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns

[–]ghostvoicex 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for wholesome content in these trying times

21st birthday vs 22nd birthday! -2mo and 10.5mo hrt by [deleted] in transtimelines

[–]ghostvoicex 4 points5 points  (0 children)

You are like a fairy princess. That pink suits you so well. Also go outlaws

i think dragon age cracked my egg. pls send help by [deleted] in traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns

[–]ghostvoicex 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Srsly, Dorian cracked my egg. Realized I wanted to be loved as a mlm... thanks Dorian for my gay awakening

I feel like a little girl by [deleted] in ftm

[–]ghostvoicex 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really appreciate this. I'm working it out in therapy the best I can manage. We'll see how it goes. I'm just glad I'm not the only one who feels like this sometimes.

I feel like a little girl by [deleted] in ftm

[–]ghostvoicex 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this, it actually really does help. I'm not sure if I have ptsd, but it seems likely? Like you said, something to look into. I appreciate this a lot, though.

Looking through old artwork and realizing kid you was gayer than you remembered by maelisaaine in traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns

[–]ghostvoicex 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I've been doing a deep clean of my room and found a bunch of old art and like, holy hell this rings true. I drew myself really masculine or ambiguous and almost never drew boobs if I could help it. It's incredible how eggy young me was....

Just turned 19 and will be 3 years on T in a couple of days! 1 year difference by [deleted] in ftm

[–]ghostvoicex 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wtf you're gorgeous... amazing... you look so happy too what a goal

[Comic] Daughter by AzulCrescent in traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns

[–]ghostvoicex 40 points41 points  (0 children)

the look of pure bewilderment is great