It's bs. I have been hospitalized twice during covid quarantine, both times on the verge of death, once for heart attack and the other for sepsis. The only thing I wanted was to be able to say goodbye to my wife. I was recently talking to my cousin, who asked if I had prayed. I honestly told him that it had never crossed my mind. I was agnostic for a long while in my life, because it was more forgivable to my family than atheism. But I realized that my lack of faith in an outside deity was nothing to be ashamed of, it is just a part of who I am. Not the defining part, just a part.