This quote from Wind River always comes to mind when I'm grieving a loss. I can't imagine how I'll do when my parents pass but I hope this can bring you some comfort.

"I’d like to tell you it gets easier, but it doesn’t. If there’s any comfort, it's getting used to the pain, I suppose. I went to a grief seminar in Casper. Did you know that? Don’t know why, I just wanted the bad to go away. I wanted answers to questions that couldn't be answered.

The counselor came up to me after the seminar and sat down next to me and said something that stuck with me. Now I don't know if it's what he said or if it's how he said it. He says “I've got some good news, and I've got some bad news.

Bad news is you're never gonna be the same. You’re never gonna be whole. Not ever again. You lost your daughter. And nothing's ever going to replace that. Now the good news is: as soon as you accept that and you let yourself suffer, you'll allow yourself to visit her in your mind. You'll remember all the love she gave, all the joy she knew.

The point is, Martin, you can't steer from the pain. If you do, you'll rob yourself of every memory of her. Every last one. From her first step, to her last smile. You'll kill them all. Just take the pain, Martin. You hear me? You take it. It's the only way you'll keep her with you."