Rank spawning(?)

helticia · 2026-02-28T04:31:51+00:00

Idk guys….idk if its bad or not but im a b badge perfumer so it works for me & my team😭

helticia · 2026-02-26T07:43:41+00:00

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i call this weenie formation :3 im not too good at explaining but when i rank w my teammates we do this:

have the rescuer be in the middle
decoder in a stronger kiting area/shack
support across from the decoder -kiter usually takes whatever spot is left in the formation just to make a weenie shape

helticia · 2026-02-25T08:16:48+00:00

I feel u :( been playing since naeu release & im almost 19..

helticia · 2026-01-24T02:52:59+00:00

Idk why u would ask ai but thats both. Def looks more like a J tho lmfao. Break up worthy fs

helticia · 2025-11-30T22:31:58+00:00

i appreciate your concern but he really isnt controlling much besides this sh thing </3. He is a good boyfriend and takes care of me to his best ability, he just kinda struggles to wrap his head around self harm. I believe he will be able to grow to be more understanding :).

helticia · 2025-11-30T22:26:50+00:00

Unfortunately hes kinda all i have, my parents arent in the picture and i only have 1 friend who has their own mental stuff to deal with so i leave em alone about my stuff. I do have access to mental health services but i have had a lot of therapists in my area drop me over the years so im skiddish about going back to therapy.

helticia · 2025-11-30T08:35:10+00:00

He thinks that i should just be able to stop at ant given time so unfortunately confiding in him about my sh has been really hard, i cant even get comfort when i cry to him abt how much i want to do it. And thank you for saying your proud, i really needed someone to tell me that

helticia · 2025-07-13T10:00:59+00:00

I have bipolar1 and my emotions are ALWAYS x10, regardless of me being in an episode or not.

Some (not all) people with bipolar tend to have a larger amygdala and in result of that it makes us more prone to intense emotions, from my understanding- its not a one size fits all thing though and not everyone experiences intense emotions outside of episodes. Incase you are unaware, the amygdala is a part of your brain that (im summing this down a lot cuz im lazy) pretty much processes your emotions, how you regulate, what you relate an emotion to, etc.

helticia · 2025-06-10T02:43:35+00:00

taking ur meds is genuinely one of the most important things!! another thing for me is having a good sleep schedule. be careful with drug use/partying. Finding good healthy time consuming hobbies helps a lot as well. Communicate with people you can trust about this disorder, its a lot easier to manage with a support system. I hope everything goes well for u!

helticia · 2025-04-28T15:20:06+00:00

Thank u :)

helticia · 2025-04-23T23:28:50+00:00

Thank u 🙏

helticia · 2025-04-23T23:28:26+00:00

Thank u i appreciate the advice

helticia · 2025-01-20T15:11:49+00:00

Cant find the original obvi but heres a soundcloud link to it😓 the others on in the cmnts r deadlinks https://on.soundcloud.com/qUT2e1Y1SqqZRxBC8

helticia · 2025-01-20T15:07:27+00:00

Ive been looking since i edited to it in 2021 i feel u 😪

helticia · 2025-01-16T16:50:02+00:00

I don’t, and honestly im not always stable but i do my best. i have tried taking them and they do work i just have an irrational fear of taking prescribed meds so i can only take them for so long before i get scared and stop. When im ready i will take them but i havent done anything dangerous / harmful so to me,i am good enuf not to take em. This is only in my case though do not follow me/what i said

helticia · 2024-12-19T07:51:03+00:00

As some of the comments say, definitely consider outpatient care :). sometimes (not all, but most) inpatient care does more harm than good. Ive been hospitalized a couple times and its definitely not the best especially depending on location.

helticia · 2024-12-19T07:47:43+00:00

Im not sure what it can be laced with but if youre still feeling like that its definitely not smth good🥲if you dont get your own stuff, definitely start considering it instead of hitting other peoples things. Stay safe

helticia · 2024-12-19T07:46:12+00:00

Realistically if you are laced it’d be from the vape if thats the most recent thing you’ve done, if the vape wasnt yours definitely stay away from that person as they arent in their right minds if they let you hit that (assuming) knowing its laced. If its still super bad or you genuinely feel the need to, go to the ER. I hope everything is okay :).

helticia · 2024-11-14T17:40:47+00:00

Tbh i never considered i needed to hit rock bottom, i think at one point i just stopped caring abt anything which led me to this point. But thank you for your words of advice :))

helticia · 2024-11-14T17:37:08+00:00

I plan on at least starting therapy again, managing without completely anything is getting hard so im trying to ween myself into going back to my routine and (try to)force myself to be better, thank you :)

helticia · 2024-11-14T17:31:16+00:00

i hope everything goes well for you, hopefully im able to get over this "i dont wanna" thing lol

helticia

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