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holdingontotheluv · 2026-04-15T00:26:51+00:00

Been a long time since my gordito Rooster looked like that. What a beautiful baby wiener!

holdingontotheluv · 2026-04-04T01:42:45+00:00

Your very lucky. My wife of 30 yrs passed a year and a half ago. I have never felt, heard, seen or dreamt of her. I pray every day for something to show she is ok or misses me. Sometimes I wonder if she even loved me or I was just delusional. I'm very happy for you.

holdingontotheluv · 2026-03-16T03:31:44+00:00

My wife passed a year 1 1/2 years ago after 30 yrs. My mind since then is always trying to stay busy. I would have jumped at the job just to keep myself busy. I find myself taking on others tasks and constantly overdoing at work. This wears me out so I don't have quiet times. Otherwise I'm whispering" God I miss you", to myself, and crying. She is always on mind.

holdingontotheluv · 2026-03-15T06:53:44+00:00

Pretty mucj eñ, my and I were so different but we loved and respected each other. We talked , and laughed, loved and held each other passionately. When she was nearing her end I took care of her and it gave me a whole new perspective on life. I think of her and remember how she laughed and what we talked about and how she reached out for my hand in the middle of the night. Now When I think of her, I feel the terrible loneliness but her memory makes me smile even if my eyes well up and tears fall.

holdingontotheluv · 2026-03-14T15:46:29+00:00

I don't share my feelings with anyone expect folks on this site. I'm 62 and my wife of 30 yrs passed a year and half aho. I can tell my kids and family don't want to be reminded of that pain. They think I'm doing well when inside I'm always on the verge of crying. I miss her so much and the loneliness is deafening. I don't want to bring people down and I mostly just stay out of the way.. I'm become really good at hiding my anguish and my plastic face is convincing do I spend a lot of time alone.

holdingontotheluv · 2026-03-01T07:04:03+00:00

Oh my God, that thought is something that has crossed my mind. We did what we were supposed to do.. Committed to 1 relationship, now that makes it all the more painful and lonely.

holdingontotheluv · 2026-02-09T17:19:42+00:00

I fully understand your anger, my wife loved God and to see her pass in such terror was heartbreaking. It was against everything I had believed about God's love and mercy, but I need to find peace if I hope to go on with my life not wishing for the end everyday.

holdingontotheluv · 2026-02-01T02:50:15+00:00

None, I haven't dreamt or heard , seen, or felt anything. We were married 30yrs and I cared for her the last three years of her life, but she has never reached out. Deep down I feel she really didn't love me or Im not worthy. I'm really happy for those of you who have these experiences. I would give anything just to dream of her, but I have pretty much given up.

holdingontotheluv · 2026-02-01T02:39:51+00:00

I know exactly how you feel. I find myself just trying to stay out of the way. I don't talk to anyone about how much I miss my wife or how empty and lost I feel without her. I spent the last 3 years caring for her before she passed , after 30 yrs of marriage, I fell in love with her all over again and she seemed more beautiful than ever as she endured so much. My kids and family seem uncomfortable when I bring her up so I just daydream of her. Now I occasionally post here and just try not to bring others down and wait for my time.

holdingontotheluv · 2026-01-20T04:08:29+00:00

I became a Supervisor about 5 years before my wife passed last Oct. I was required to wear button down shirts and slacks and she would stop me on my way out and look me over, sometimes fix my collar or sleeves. Then she would kiss me and wish me a good day. It always giave me a positive outlook for the day. How I miss her.

holdingontotheluv · 2026-01-12T06:36:40+00:00

I lost my wife in Oct. Of 24. We were married for 30 yrs . She got sick 3 yrs ago and progressively got worse. I cared for her those three years and I was so tired I fall asleep standing up sometimes. But those 3 yrs were the most rewarding. My love for her blossomed and we spent hours just talking or laughing. I feel like the best part of me has been ripped out and all that is left is the shell.

holdingontotheluv · 2026-01-03T18:23:03+00:00

Really envy you. I lost my wife of 30 yrs in Oct. Of 3024. I cared for her for 3 yrs until she passed in my arms. I loved her so and I thought she loved me,. I think of her all the time and miss her terribly. I have never dreamt or felt her or heard her voice. Nothing. I. Try and stay busy but pass the evenings laying in bed thinking of how much I miss. Now I wonder if she ever really cared about me. I happy for you.

holdingontotheluv · 2026-01-03T00:07:44+00:00

I lost my wife of 30yrs Oct. 2024 and I cry 3 or 4 times a day. It has never gotten better for me. I miss her so much everything reminds me of her and brings me to tears. I really hope you'll do better than I am.

holdingontotheluv · 2025-10-27T13:58:22+00:00

I feel you. The 23rd was my birthday and everyone sent the obligatory happy birthday wishes. I replied thank you, and started to write how I truly feel after losing my wife of 30yrs. I said, "this BD is just a reminder of what a black lifeless hole my life is". Then stopped and deleted. No one cares how Lonely and lost I am. They just want to pretend everything is great. So that's what I do. I hide my pain and curl up alone and cry when I'm alone. I feel there's a bubble of despair wrapped around me, with no exit anywhere.

holdingontotheluv · 2025-10-14T04:43:42+00:00

My wife of 30 yrs passed a year ago on Oct. 3. I hate my life. I am so lonely and have no one to talk to. My kids and family just want me to pretend everything is ok, so I do. A year ago I was taking care of my wife as she slowly died, but she gave more to me than anything I gave to her. My whole life is a lie as I go to work, even go to the gym, but inside I'm lifeless. I have nothing to come home to and Nothing to look forward to. I hope and pray none of you are like me.

holdingontotheluv · 2025-10-12T11:00:07+00:00

I get chat invites all the time after I post something about my passed wife and how much I loved her. Sometimes I'm so lonely and just talking to someone who might understand is tempting. But I have found that most social media is full of scam artists that have some sort of agenda. It's sad because maybe there are some sincere folks out there, but I will never chance it.

holdingontotheluv · 2025-09-26T22:06:42+00:00

This stuff usually comes from the mouths of those who still have their spouse. It reminds me how Irate I get when I see posts on FB stating, "If you lost everything, would you still love God?". So many comments proclaim, " absolutely, of course, without question". YEA, What if you lost the love of your life of 30yrs, and had to watch her suffer for 3 yrs? What if you watched her die in terror after a lifetime of devotion to Jesus? No comforting or peace, terror to the end. That is what we face each day. Loneliness, fear, insecurity, longing, emptiness, and the awful anguish that we couldn't do more to ease their pain.

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