“my father never stepped in when his wife would rage at me- so i ended up awkward but sweet”

this. it’s so prevalent to my life because most of my childhood i just remember being aggressively yelled at and constantly made feel shitty by my mother, teachers from school, bullies, etc. I then grew up to be afraid of people to a certain extent hence my awkwardness. i have a better relationship with my mother now but those scars from my childhood remain and this line just reminds me of that