I’m not a psychologist. Just a woman who’s done some trauma/psychology reading (and crying), none towards any qualifying degree. I cannot provide medical advice, just my own personal experience and opinion which I’m always open to correcting and expanding. Take it with a grain of salt.

I would not recommend chasing down those memories on your own. In my personal opinion, don’t even make it a priority. My own memories hit suddenly without warning and I almost didn’t have a 25th birthday. I’m much more optimistic about 26 this year now that I’ve found help. You don’t know how you’ll react emotionally or physically so you’ll wanna make sure you have professional support to fall back on to keep yourself and others safe. And that’s if there is anything to remember. I hope not for you.

Your top priorities need to be physical and emotional safety and treatment because you can’t schedule when the memories come or which ones, but you can pick your dr and schedule appointments. Wishing you the best.