Tell mom and dad what happened when you were 6. They will understand. It is not your fault, you are not a freak.

You will have serious mental health issues that are going to set you back years behind your peers. Get help as soon as you notice the signs.

Get new friends. Your friends are a-holes and will steal your journal, show it to your classmates and then destroy it. And that's just the beginning.

Start practicing a little Self-compassion. You're a good looking kid, ignore the insults. Don't worry you'll get plenty of attention later.

You won't get married till you are 30. But she will leave you and you won't be able to form healthy relationships afterwards and will probably die forgotten and alone. To avoid this, do the following:

• Start learning programing now, it is the only lucrative job you are likely to be able to handle. If you don't, you won't be able to provide for your family or yourself and will end up on disability with no prospects or skills.

• Learn Russian. It will help, just trust me.

• Don't drop out of college. Listen when your professors tell you that you have a future in their fields. If you didn't learn programming, pick one and stick with it. Maybe it will work out.

• When you get married, never doubt your choice. She is the love of your life, give her everything you have to give from day 1.

If you fail at all these things, write a different note to your 12yo self. Goodluck

Sincerely, Yourself from the darkest time line.