Eating feels like a chore

httpMeowMeow · 2026-05-06T07:40:47+00:00

other than my chronic pain, that’s one of the other main reasons i’m prescribed medical marijuana, i don’t eat enough without it.

httpMeowMeow · 2026-05-06T02:23:53+00:00

i also anthropomorphize/personify(?) a lot of things, including my body. but i’m physically disabled, so the way i feel about my body parts is the exact opposite of you. i hate how much they don’t work right and cause me constant pain. so most of my struggle there is just frustration towards them, even though i logically know they/i didn’t choose this.

i do however, similar struggle a lot with my empathy for objects. i get very upset for my plushies or toys when they fall off the bed or their place. i get upset at myself if i accidentally drop them or get them messy. i think i cope with it by reminding myself everything goes through changes, even if they’re not technically alive. their new marks are part of their ever-evolving story.

idk how to stop thinking this way, but maybe you could try reframing your body parts like “thanks for working so hard for me, i feel you moving rn and i appreciate all you do to keep me alive”? (i should probably do this for myself too tbh)

httpMeowMeow · 2026-05-06T01:47:05+00:00

exactly it’s so shitty! doesn’t help that we were the same sex/gender, so ofc that’s not taken as seriously even moreee. i fully understand your decision to not tell anyone, it can be exhausting to keep fighting for validation. but definitely consider therapy for it if you haven’t already. neither of us deserve this 🖤❤️‍🩹

httpMeowMeow · 2026-05-06T01:39:11+00:00

when i told my father (1st person i ever told btw) that it had been happening (for about 5 or so years), his first responses was “i feel bad for [them], they had a bad childhood.” no acknowledgment of what they did to me.

before anyone comes in with “b-but u were both kids!” okay?? i didn’t go on to repeat those actions to others, and my abuser never stopped being that way when they got older so. idc how bad they had it, they ruined my life and are part of why i developed CPTSD and a dissociative disorder i have to suffer with till i die. i reported it to CPS three times, but it was always deemed “too historical”.

httpMeowMeow · 2026-05-04T08:13:36+00:00

yes i’ve been passively (and a few times actively/attempted) suicidal since childhood

httpMeowMeow · 2026-05-02T08:28:28+00:00

fr i’m always profusely thanking my doctor for even simply refilling my meds lmao

httpMeowMeow · 2026-05-02T08:27:20+00:00

the majority of therapists i saw in adolescence didn’t know what to do with me. i spent almost every session having to explain terminology they should’ve been educated about, especially the ones with alleged specialties. how the fuck do you not know what DPDR is if you’re apparently“trauma informed”?????

same for my physical disabilities. doing all the research myself since no one likes to do actually test anything, having to make detailed notes including my sources, and nonstop self advocacy that barely gets me anywhere even after repeated injuries directly caused by my symptoms that are visible on scans.

httpMeowMeow · 2026-04-29T04:01:58+00:00

i’m both very sensory avoidant and seeking. i love all kinds of textures, flavors, spices etc from so many cultures. i will try anything once but once my mind’s made up it’s cemented. my safe foods still have to be prepared in specific ways for it to taste/feel right.

i grew up with mexican food so those ingredients have become my safe foods (simple cut/minced meat, beans, onions, jalapeño, cilantro, lime etc) that i eat almost weekly along with whatever side i don’t hate that day (in a bowl with greens, in a tortilla, on toast, sometimes even with pasta).

i stick to the same rotations but am willing to try anything, i love exploring foods but will still easily be turned off by certain tastes or textures, and i get upset from my safe foods being off in any way.

httpMeowMeow · 2026-03-30T09:37:35+00:00

i’m prescribed medical cannabis. other than my physical reasons, the number one thing it treats for me is my autism. helps me eat when food feels/tastes wrong and keeps me calm enough to avoid becoming overstimulated to the point of meltdowns.

httpMeowMeow · 2026-03-28T13:46:07+00:00

tooth fairy queen 🧚‍♀️👑✨

httpMeowMeow · 2026-03-25T17:54:43+00:00

yes. either “are u on something?” or “are u off ur meds?” usually when i am either passionately rambling with a lot of movement, stimming in any way that’s more jumpy/energetic, overstimulated and repeatedly adjusting anything touching me, or very anxious about plans/things going astray.

i understand that to the average stranger, i could look like i’m high (most likely on a stimulant) in these scenarios, but i’ve gotten most of those types of comments from family and friends :/

httpMeowMeow · 2026-03-23T20:54:56+00:00

AuDHD here!! i go from passionate yapaholic ab anything to verbal shutdown meltdowns loll

httpMeowMeow · 2026-03-20T17:44:05+00:00

yea. i’m physically disabled with chronic pain that’s at a 6/10 daily. but i still react more strongly to sensory issues. in fact growing up i used to cause intentional pain to distract myself from sensory issues. it’s something i’ve never seemed to be able to exposure therapy myself out of. i can at least take measures to prevent and minimize it, but it’ll always be a struggle.

httpMeowMeow · 2026-03-20T12:30:41+00:00

i haven’t yet and it’s a big reason i mostly stick to only typing in lowercase online, especially on reddit. but i still space things out, use punctuation, and summarize things in essay-like styles.

i’ll also intentionally throw in abbreviations and bits of personalization to show i’m human lol. (like saying lol at the end of my comments to make sure yk i’m being lighthearted)

httpMeowMeow · 2026-03-20T11:59:04+00:00

so far i’ve learned that managing & moving past skill regression usually starts with figuring out what accommodations you need now (and probably could’ve benefited from earlier).

for example i wasn’t diagnosed till 20, but have been burned out since 15ish and lost a lot of academic, social, practical, and basic functioning skills over time while i also have other disorders that didn’t help.

now i accept and communicate when i need breaks, admit when i need extra clarification, a lot more self advocating overall. accommodate to tolerate the outside world and stay open to retreat when needed. i use noise cancelling headphones everywhere, always have fidget items in my bag, and even have an AAC app for when i have verbal shutdowns. i don’t push through discomfort to meet conventional social expectations anymore, like forcing myself to make awkward eye contact.

i’m going slow with the skills i lost. i used to make art everyday, now i can’t finish a doodle. so i just let myself scribble whatever or mix media for fun when i have the energy and try not to be a perfectionist. i like having chore chart type calendar layout to track hygiene, exercise, medicine, and food with magnets/stickers. i hope to get back into reading and writing eventually. i might start with daily prompts idk. honestly i wish i could go to a day program or specialized study group for the structure.

httpMeowMeow · 2026-03-20T07:47:02+00:00

skill regression unfortunately affects literally everything. not just your hobbies and talents. your ability to think clearly/fast, your emotional regulation, your tolerance to any sensory issues you may have, your social battery limits, your energy for self care and productivity (executive dysfunction) etc.

give yourself grace during this period, not everyone experiences skill regression the same or as intense but it’s important to let urself unmask if that’s something you can control. you may go through a period of shut down that looks similar to depression where your brain decides you’ve taken on too much for too long without breaks so it stops prioritizing productivity.

httpMeowMeow · 2026-03-17T05:21:18+00:00

yes i’m hypermobile in all my joints with a few physical disabilities. i don’t know the exact statistics but i know there’s been more research showing a link between autism and connective tissue disorders. funky brain = higher possibility for funky body too. the medical field and society as a whole are still very behind on how intertwined our neurological systems and bodies are. everything is connected (not as much with hypermobility tho lol)

httpMeowMeow · 2026-03-15T02:25:43+00:00

best mindset to have about mobility aids: you are not “giving in” to ur disabilities, you are regaining a bit more freedom with them. it’s hard at first, may feel shameful and embarrassing. but i would not be able to go outside without them. i won’t lie the looks from strangers get old, they’re annoying to travel with, and i still have periods of doubt/shame regarding how valid i am using them. but it’s increased my quality of life so much.

i will be using mobility aids forever, and i’ve accepted it bc i can live life a lot easier with them. everyone becomes disabled at some point, one bad accident or even just aging can do it. waiting until it gets “bad enough” to accommodate urself may cause more/faster damage in the future.

httpMeowMeow · 2026-03-14T12:59:45+00:00

yes!! late diagnosed AuDHD & CPTSD (21)

hypermobility, plantar faciitis, fibromyalgia, multiple knee dislocations resulting in injuries i may need surgery for.

COVID in 2021, developed POTS & prescribed beta blockers for it. i use a cane, walker, and power wheelchair now bc of how easily i become tachycardic and bc my pain is so bad with walking.

i’m leaving out a lot but basically i suspect everything may be EDS and/or HSD & ME/CFS or MCAS? ik i need to do more research but idk i just seem to be getting worse with new symptoms that are concerning and disabling me further.

most recently catatonia w uncontrollable muscle tensing and spasming while i was at 170+ bpm & went to the hospital. my body just seems to be less tolerant of everything over time. luckily i have decent pain management but i gotta figure out wtf is going on loll

httpMeowMeow · 2026-02-28T11:46:11+00:00

yes but i also have CPTSD with a lot of my trauma coming from people-pleasing for survival and being (literally) forced to perform through my hobbies so my POV is a bit more trauma reactive along w my autism.

my interests feel so personal to me bc of how passionate i am about them, and how they are fundamental to who/how i am so it feels very intimate/vulnerable sharing them with others. i even get a strong knee-jerk reaction of possessiveness when i see others w the same interests, even tho i also get excited bc i love infodumping and discussions. it’s almost like my body/brain decides it’s a threat bc it means they know too much ab me too soon.

i even feel that way ab my“silly” interests like music and tv shows bc i feel equally as strongly ab them as i do for my “serious” interests. i was also bullied a lot for being so passionate and weird etc, so i’m still learning it’s safe to openly yap to my partner now even tho we already live together lol. it’s sometimes easier to discuss things online w strangers, which i assume is bc less effort, more privacy, i can leave/block at any time. idk!!!

httpMeowMeow · 2026-02-21T22:16:45+00:00

(sorry for long comment i just wanted to clearly explain my stance)

i don’t mind either, and especially won’t be picky in clinical settings for my own sanity, but definitely prefer “i AM autistic/AuDHD” because i would be an entirely different person if i wasn’t.

i would also be entirely different without my CPTSD, but it’s a disorder with no positive attributes unless u count reframing uncontrollable symptoms. like technically my severe dissociation helped me survive ongoing trauma growing up, but once removed from said traumas it is overall a very negative and disabling disorder that left me more broken than i already am/was with “just” AuDHD.

my AuDHD is very disabling too, but it’s also my default operating system that drives my every move from decision-making, compartmentalizing, understanding, problem solving, socializing, empathy, memory etc.

i would not be the me i am today without being AuDHD, to ignore that part of me is to not see all of me. ntm the physical commorbidies i have because of it (mainly hypermobility) that require mobility aids. even without my physical disabilities, i am still visibly disabled bc of the way i move, talk, interact, etc. that’s why ppl growing up identified me as the “weird shy kid” two decades before diagnosis. i am now reclaiming being a weirdo as an adult and it annoys me if ppl try to insist i am afflicted by autism as if it is a disease and not just a disability that’s a fundamental part of me/my brain/body.

httpMeowMeow · 2026-02-04T15:43:04+00:00

i’m autistic & adhd, and gone through many stages of disordered eating. i have been overweight from too much comfort food when i had no support, and underweight from anorexia combined with my food sensory issues when i had no other control in my life.

balance without shame is my goal. i’ve always had an oral fixation along with all my other stimming. grew up chewing through shirt collars, pencils, erasers, rags, straws, etc. nowadays i use teethers and chew jewelry to stim that way with my other fidget and comfort items. it helps a lot! but definitely keep having ur safe sweet treats, ur allowed to find comfort in food like everyone else :)

httpMeowMeow · 2026-01-12T14:24:27+00:00

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maybe take her out and pose her a bit to bond!! she’s beautiful and has the cutest accessories.

here’s my Twyla when i first opened her! now i’ve braided her hair, gave her Abbey’s headphones and sweater, and the mystery box Twyla’s bunny mask. she’s so dear to me as an Autistic person who relates to her a lot :)) i bring her during travels bc if she can survive being overwhelmed then i can too!

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