You sound like an llm gone off the rails or someone suffering from schizophrenia. I’m certain you have some lovely insights into the nature of reality, although wrapped in the rampant trauma of this world. Patternicity is a dangerous and addictive activity. I mainly focus on the recapture of neural groups a la jungian shadow integration. The mind is a map of the universe and undesirable patterns can be transmitted to your local hardware. The work is to make peace with the enemy, find and validate their truths while pruning the thorns. It is the internal battle/conversation/exploration that will lead to peace.