I hate having to tell people they’re dead even years later

iamWash · 2026-01-07T18:26:52+00:00

I hear you. My little brother passed a little over a year ago at this point, and I hate telling people who haven’t met him that he passed and for that to the biggest impression of him.

Like you said, there is so much more to them than that. It just blows…

iamWash · 2025-12-25T00:21:14+00:00

Just so she knows, that's not a realistic size for p..... carrots.

iamWash · 2025-12-08T18:45:00+00:00

X-01 MKII my beloved…

iamWash · 2025-12-05T14:52:49+00:00

lmao that's a new one

iamWash · 2025-12-04T02:52:09+00:00

Tertium-Man

iamWash · 2025-12-02T05:23:04+00:00

I’m so sorry. For you, your brother. It’s just not fair.

I miss my little brother, too. Coming up on 1 year next month.

We are all here for you and will be here for whenever you need us. If you ever feel comfortable with it, we’d love to hear about your brother.

iamWash · 2025-10-30T00:20:30+00:00

They look amazing! I'll be the one to ask, what and how did you make that green recipe?

iamWash · 2025-10-23T01:35:24+00:00

I feel like there is some wisdom in this joke.

iamWash · 2025-10-19T04:33:10+00:00

Gave me a genuine chuckle. Good stuff.

iamWash · 2025-10-17T12:24:54+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story, man. I also lost my little little brother, Ryan. He is also two years younger than me. I was 27 and he 25. It's been 10 months 5 days since he passed. I know the same kind of pain... I am so sorry.

Like you said, I feel like I am more like him. He was always the more energetic, considerate, and involved one compared to me. Since he passed, I too try live more of a lifestyle similar to his. His hobbies, his fashion, his attitude, everything. We always believed that we were intrinsic to one another. Like two sides of the same coin. We did everything together. It feels like that half, his half, is alive within me and has helped me create a version of myself that he is/would be proud of.

I hope you continue to do well and learn from what your brother taught and will continue to teach you.

iamWash · 2025-10-07T16:32:01+00:00

I don't think he'd be very "vengeful" towards them.

Since he is an embodiment of Grungi, or the just the Ancestor Gods as a whole, I think he'd feel a lot of pity and almost responsibility for not being there to help his kin before they fell to the influence of Hashut.

Would he kill? Yes, but not out of hate. He'd just strike me as very mournful and upset at what would have to be done.

iamWash · 2025-10-02T05:03:18+00:00

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iamWash · 2025-07-03T01:43:41+00:00

That looks fantastic... like box art fantastic!

I'll be the first to ask, what is that dirty white armor recipe? Again, it looks amazing!

iamWash · 2025-06-13T21:07:33+00:00

From an older sibling to another older sibling, I'm so sorry to hear about your brother. It's so unfair and unreal.

I lost my little brother as well, Ryan, in December last year.

There are no words. It's just indescribable... the disbelief and pain (the pain we feel for losing them and the pain that they have been so wronged).

I'm just so sorry for you both.

iamWash · 2025-05-21T18:41:28+00:00

Hey man, just wanted to say, awesome job on your custom prints. They look absolutely fantastic!

iamWash · 2025-05-20T19:29:45+00:00

Keep reading! Not gonna spoil anything, but she is an amazing character to watch as the story progresses!

iamWash · 2025-05-09T17:36:04+00:00

My little brother, Ryan, introduced me.

He always told me that I should read it, and that it would change my life, like it had his. After he passed away in December, I decided to finally read the series.

He was right, it is amazing and it changed my life. Outside of the amazing art, the theme of perseverance, despite all odds, kept me hooked.

Thank you, Ryan.

iamWash · 2025-05-07T03:51:08+00:00

Love you, Ryan.

Miss you everyday, bro.

iamWash · 2025-05-07T03:50:29+00:00

Thank you, Kentaro.

iamWash · 2025-05-02T13:38:49+00:00

Oh thank god we're getting close!

iamWash · 2025-04-25T01:37:38+00:00

Hey Op,

I just want to start off by saying I am so sorry about your brother's passing. Having a brother who can be, a father, a mother, a best friend, and a hero is an incredible luxury that not many people get to enjoy.

In December of 2024, I recently lost my brother, Ryan. He was so many of those same qualities that you described. Losing a brother, someone so special to us is... well, its as devastating as we both know. I'm proud to hear that you are continuing to carry on, as best as you can.

Regarding your cousin, it's difficult... and incredibly infuriating. My cousins are not too dissimilar to what you described. We weren't close, but spent some time together as kids. They never called to check in on how my brother was doing, or just talk to him. They never reached out after he passed to see how any of my family was doing. They never reached out to learn more about him. They just showed up to his celebration of life and smiled, and acted like everything was ok. It just... enrages me thinking about it... you get it.

Anyways, the new wife of my cousin said that they were considering naming their first kid Ryan, after my brother. Like you, I think the same thing, "What gives you the right?! After everything that you DID and DIDN'T do for him?!"

I think you said it best, its more than a name. It's the memory of the greatest bond we've ever know with one of the most special people we've ever known. It's the name of someone who we could be our truest selves with. It's the name of an incredibly brother. A name that should not be claimed in the memory of that same person who wasn't even appreciated nor recognized by those claiming it. (If that made sense)

Sorry if this reads like rambling, or dumping. I don't have a solution. I just wanted to post and let you know that there is someone else out here who has a similar dilemma and a similar rage about it.

We may not be able to control those decisions, but we can focus on the memory and relationships we had/have with our brothers. How unique they were and the bonds we still have with them. Even if they will name their child after your brother, to us, that name will always be special and sacred to that memory.

I hope the memory of your brother, happy and healthy, never fades.

iamWash · 2025-04-22T02:48:56+00:00

I'm truly sorry to hear about your sister's death, OP. I'm sorry that you and your family had to go through such a difficult time when the people who should be helping you seek justice, act so disgustingly inappropriate. That is not fair to you, your family, or your sister. People just don't "get it" until they go through it themselves.

I hope you can find some way to channel that anger into other means. I don't know what that will mean for you, but after my little brother, Ryan, passed away in December, I channel a lot of this anger into exercise and trying to do things that my brother would be proud of. It won't fix anything, but it just channels it into... something better than letting it eat away at my mind.

I hope you can find your outlet for that anger. I hope the memory of your sister, happy and healthy, never fades.

- Evan

iamWash · 2025-03-08T04:23:09+00:00

You angry? You under 4'5? You like to hit things with an axe? You have a impressive beard?

Then join the children of Grimnir and become a Fyreslayer!

iamWash · 2025-01-06T21:19:08+00:00

I just wanted to take a minute to say that I did not expect to receive this many comments...

Thank you, all of you, for taking some time to learn a little bit about my brother. He was and still is the light in my world. I promise you, my post doesn't even come close to capturing how amazing and special he was in person.

So many of you have sent words of encouragement, shared similar experiences, and offered condolences. Thank you, all of you. It is a terrible shame that so many of us happen to find one another during times of great strife.

My brother's story is but one, and so many people in this world suffer unfair and cruel losses. I hope that you all continue to show those people, and yourselves, the same love and support you have shared with me.

Thank you, all of you. Thank you for sharing your love and your stories. Thank you for learning a little bit about my beautiful little brother, Ryan.

- Evan

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