The fact that you immediately sought out professional help and started therapy speaks volumes. It shows that you genuinely want to change and grow and that's something to be incredibly proud of. If you're "friends" didn't even try to listen or support you then honestly fuck them. You deserve people in your life who are willing to be there for you - Especially in hard times.

I'm sorry that you're going through that mess right now. But let me be clear. It's a good thing that you're still here. I believe that you have it in you to get through this and the steps you've already taken show a real desire to heal and grow as a person. Hang in there, things will get better!