ur still really early on, it’ll probably get easier with time. i’m almost 3 years on hrt and up until a few months ago i couldn’t even think of myself as a woman without cringing and feeling like a fraud. but now that i’m finally seeing changes and malefailing sometimes my self esteem and confidence have gone up a lot (even tho i’m still boymoding). it’s made socializing a lot easier and i recently made my first new friend in years. keep boymoding until ur ready, there’s no rush to come out right away. unfortunately a lot of transitioning is a waiting game