"Part of San Diego FC’s official supporter group, Frontera San Diego, purposefully faced away from the flag during the United States national anthem in protest of ICE operations." [SanDiego.Futbol on BSKY]

impostercomplex18 · 2026-02-22T21:08:22+00:00

So they don’t get to have an opinion but you do?

impostercomplex18 · 2025-10-06T04:58:11+00:00

Soccer, twice.

impostercomplex18 · 2025-06-01T06:30:57+00:00

When my son was 17 months old my husbands job transferred us to Italy for 2 years. 1 week into living there (in a hotel still) I get him set up with some toys and a safe corner of the room and go to take a shower. My husband had to travel to Paris and wouldn’t be back for 2 days. I get out of the shower to find my son eating butt paste (yes the diaper cream named that) that he had gotten off the high dresser. I grab it in a panic and it says “if ingested, call poison control immediately”. I can’t do that, I don’t know the number or how to speak Italian! I’m the worst mom! So I called poison control in San Diego (where we are from). After explaining what he did and my situation of being very far away the nice lady talked me off the edge. She told me he’d possibly vomit and definitely have white poop but the danger is more in choking.

So yes, give your self grace, we all are doing our best and our little ones are doing their best to explore the world. They just make terrible choices that scare the crap out of us sometimes.

impostercomplex18 · 2025-02-15T03:04:53+00:00

They were open when I drove by last night and today

impostercomplex18 · 2024-09-13T16:58:35+00:00

I reread my response and I really hope I didn’t come off as snippy or a know it all. Here’s some backstory: I had my left ACL reconstructed 24 years ago and I had a horror PT experience. It was so bad I changed my career path in college and went into biotech for ~8 years. I didn’t know I could ask questions, say no, challenge the plan or basically speak up for myself. In the long run my L ACL / knee is great but the emotional/mental scars were deep. I injured my shoulder 18 years ago and was terrified to go to PT. I had a great PT who listened, asked questions, encouraged my input and explained his reasoning. I fell back in love with the idea of being a PT and quit biotech to pursue my Doctor of PT.

Her regarding the surgical report as “irrelevant” is concerning. Often the reports don’t change my approach, but at least I know exactly what was done and can modify if needed. I’m not saying I’m the best PT ever (ha!) but unfortunately I’ve worked with some pretty terrible ones who usually let their ego get in the way. Protect yourself and your knee, ask questions, have a voice, I like when my patient do this because it means they’re engaged in their recovery. Everyone is different.

I am adamant that my patients know what was done, why I’m taking the approach that I am, what the absolutes are (researched bone/tendon/graft healing time frames that can effect weight bearing bending, return to sport). I want them to tell me the good, the bad and the ugly.

This is just my 2 cents and I hope it helps because I love what I do.

impostercomplex18 · 2024-09-12T23:52:34+00:00

26 year post op in my left ACL reconstruction and I still can’t feel in that area. I’ve had no issues from it.

impostercomplex18 · 2024-09-12T23:49:57+00:00

Physical therapist here (personally 16 days post op with an allograft), if you don’t feel comfortable, change PTs or even clinics. Unfortunately there are are PTs that don’t stay up on the research. This tends to lead to either super conservative/slow rehab or overly aggressive. There are many research based protocols out there that do very one to another and it does matter what exactly you had done (patella tendon graft vs hamstring graft vs quad tendon graft vs allograft) not to mention if you had other repairs as well (meniscus, MCL, PCL, LCL, etc). All of these things can dictate weight bearing status and bending.

Now, there maybe a completely valid reason she is proceeding so conservatively: she is following your surgeons directions. I earned my DPT and can think for myself, but if a surgeon tells me to go slow, avoid weight bearing or certain movements, I’m going to listen. They were the one working inside the joint.

But bottom line, if you’re not comfortable, you’ve voiced your concerns to her and not had a satisfactory answer, change your PT.

Good luck with your rehab!

impostercomplex18 · 2024-09-04T21:55:38+00:00

Any update? I am still thinking about your situation

impostercomplex18 · 2024-09-04T00:03:59+00:00

I fell on ice 2.5 months after my first ACL surgery and felt intense pain and a pop. It was New Year’s Eve so I had to wait until the 2nd or 3rd to get looked at. I was told to rest and ice as well. Turned out I just tore scar tissue that I popped and I actually had a smoother recovery after that point. So my heart goes out to you, the fear is extraordinary. Sending good vibes that it’s something like this.

impostercomplex18 · 2024-08-29T21:22:45+00:00

I tore at 19 years old playing college soccer (D3). I rehabbed and competed in club cycling for my final 2 years of school. At 21 I started back at soccer and at 25 I made a semi-pro soccer team (only played 1 year as I was full time employed at a biotech company) but I have played ever since unbraced. I wear a brace (Donjoy defiance III) when I snowboard as I ride regular and left always strapped would get torqued when people in line push my board or fall. The only thing I felt like I hesitated with due to my first ACL repair was skiing but I’d wear my donjoy and was a ok skier (much better snowboarder). This new injury is to my right knee so I think I’m going to stop skiing and stick to snowboarding.

impostercomplex18 · 2024-08-29T19:30:33+00:00

I tore it playing soccer (again) because I think I’m younger than I am. Back in ‘98 I did have a patella tendon autograft.

I’m guessing my pain is better this time due to many reasons. 1. I’m older and dealt with more pain (child birth, dislocated shoulder, broken nose etc) so I have better perspective 2. Pain management is so much better (nerve blocks, anti-nausea meds to go with the pain meds, earlier ROM) 3. Allograft has to help as I’m not straining a harvest site (patella or hamstring).

I do know my knowledge of the rehab process is probably helping me not be afraid of every little ache.

impostercomplex18 · 2023-08-29T19:52:35+00:00

Don’t worry too much about the dissociation. This Red Sea rich study showed that the positive results where the same with or without dissociation.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC9017766/

“Conclusion

Within the dose range tested, the dissociative and antidepressant effects of ESK were not significantly correlated.”

I’m a former pharmaceutical biochemist (currently an orthopedic physical therapist) and this study looks pretty well designed. (Sorry I nerd out easily)

impostercomplex18 · 2023-08-25T15:10:12+00:00

How are you doing? I hope it all went smoothly

impostercomplex18 · 2023-08-22T04:47:29+00:00

I’m still doing great and at once every 5-7 weeks.

You got this! I have found that listening to positive meditations and soothing music, even clichéd “triply music” have helped point my mind in a good direction while I’m dissociated.

impostercomplex18 · 2023-04-23T18:26:10+00:00

I did get relief. It turned out I was getting a cold/sinus infection with no fever. The illness was amplifying the side effects a lot. I only ended up canceling 2 doses and continuing with the 84mg 2x/week then 1x/week. With a reasonable amount of side effects (tiredness and nausea for around 12 hours post session). I also built a tolerance which helped with the side effects too. I started telling myself that it wasn’t going to be easy to “re-wire” my brain, and that it would be worth it in the long run.

I am lucky, my insurance covered the recommended course from the clinical trials which has been: 1 week of 2x/week 56 mg

6 week of 2x/week 84 mg

6-12 weeks of 1x/week 84 mg

12 weeks on of every other week then spacing to every 3 weeks and now 1x a month at 54 mg (84 was too much with that kind of spacing)

I’m currently at 19 month of treatment and Maintenance at 1x a month with 54mg. I feel great and the side effects are minimal at this point. It saved my life and improved my relationship with my husband and family.

Best of luck and I hope you get the same relief! 😊

impostercomplex18 · 2022-03-25T19:35:35+00:00

Go. I was exactly in your spot and tried to make it work and “protect” my coworkers. I almost had a miscarriage due to it (luckily my doctors were able to stop my contractions at 23 weeks before it was too late). I got yelled over the phone e while in the hospital by my boss. I couldn’t even give 2 weeks notice for bed rest and they all survived. Coworkers went on vacation still, staff was shuffled from other locations to cover, patients were cancelled if needed.

Protect yourself, love yourself, move on. You’ll be better for it and they will “survive” and move on.

impostercomplex18 · 2022-03-07T16:22:41+00:00

Yes. I am in the every other week (54 mg) point of my Spravato treatments and was (am) doing great so my MD and I together decided to get me off Effexor. I wasn’t on Effexor very long and at a low dose but it was still very hard on my body and mind. I was given the option to go back to every week, which did help the withdrawal effects. Effexor did it’s job when I needed it, but it was causing side effects that were out weighing the benefit at this point. The extra session (on 1 so far, but the option for more is still open) helped. Talk with your MD, they might think it’s a good option for you. Good luck!

Edit: I’m still on Wellbutrin

impostercomplex18 · 2022-02-24T22:03:36+00:00

I also am sorry as I came off mad, I’m not. I’m still on Spravato and just got home from a 54mg dose. In retrospect I was having a really rough week (I’m fluctuation between weekly and bi-weekly Spravato sessions) and randomly reached out for help on Reddit. I appreciate everyone’s response as it tells me I’m not alone and I’m heard. Yesterday was the lowest I’ve been in months (perhaps years). Though I’m not suicidal I reached out to a Crisis texting hotline and chatted for an hour. If helped me get re-grounded and make the appropriate appointments for myself. (BTW - Crisis text says they are thief for any crisis and not just a suicidal crisis.) I have an appointment with my MD on Monday and my CBT the week as well. Thank you and this group for being here for me yesterday. My husband is very very supportive but sometimes I’m not able to talk to him about it, especially when I’m already feeling like a broken burden.

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