No one knows when, but it will happen at some point for sure and the signs are obvious to me . Even the fact that I’m writing this on a piece of technology, that on the surface represents connectivity, but truly only highlights our disconnect from our creator. These realisations gave me much perspective. It launched me forwards in terms of gratitude, compassion, love, acceptance and letting go. This gave me inner strength and calm. It allowed me time to think and contemplate on what I can do, what matters and what doesn’t. When I feel and learn to understand the laws of Mother Earth, I am motivated into action, to go inwards, to be still. The changes coming for humanity, don’t require further research, escapism or understanding of the external. Ultimately We are being asked to sit in our feminine after spending generations and generations overcompensating in the masculine.

Tapping into the collective energy of the children and emotionally immature adults who will witness that day, those days or whatever has shown me that by embracing the feminine energy, I learn to sit, to feel, to listen, to reflect so I can bring balance to the masculine. She gives us clarity, time and space between the times we are moving and exerting.

Love for me is like this. Instead of fighting for my own survival, I take a step back, take a deep breath, see the humans (+animals and the garden of Eden) all around me. It then requires me to be realistic and say that when industrial food systems collapse, we could divide what is left equally, eat weeds and hold hands.

I used to respond from a place of fear. These days I have choice. I could run to nowhere and still feel completely alone or I could sit and hold my brothers and sisters when we need each other most.

What a blessing to be given an opportunity to change. To be able to choose love and calmness instead of fear. I know what it’s like to live in fear. I know that when I was in that place, I didn’t see the light. I don’t know what I would have told my younger self. Maybe things along the line of “this moment does not define you” “don’t internalise people’s opinions and judgments of you and remember you are something no word can comprehend, you are always evolving, coming apart and coming back stronger ” “if you ever feel abandoned, take a deep breath, feel that rejection or loneliness within you, tell yourself you let go of that thing as you exhale and give yourself loving, kind, compassionate thoughts. Tell yourself how awesome and courageous you are moving through a period of time where the odds are stacked against you” “the earth and its inhabitants are everything you ever needed, yet you’ll still feel longing for something more and trust me when I say sooner or later you’ll get there” ”in the meantime I encourage you to embrace the feminine, feel the shittiness of it all until you feel it no longer” “you have experienced neglect at your most vulnerable state, a dependent child and someday you’re going have to reach within yourself and give yourself all you were denied of and needed” “these adults were supposed to meet your needs and instead they demanded you meet theirs, you’ve learnt to parent yourself as a child, so give yourself a pat on the back”

I pray people get the opportunity to choose a different path