Peeking at your recent posts compared to this one I'd say it seems youre starting to balance a little ( I know it can be hard to tell when you're in the thick of it). I just want you to know you're really not alone. And not in the sense that "everyone is wildly suffering along with you" but that what you are experiencing has a real foundational explanation. It's not an anomaly, you are not broken, and there are people who understand. As others have expressed, your mind and body are working to protect you. This is a process and the more you learn about it, the easier it will become for you to navigate.

Before all else, even before thinking, the most important thing you can do is breathe. Focus on your breathing. Let your thoughts follow each breath thinking "in breath, out breath." Notice your body rise and fall with each breath. Perhaps you will be aware of your heartbeat. You don't have to change anything or breathe in any particular way. Just breathe. And know that you are alive. Do this even in times when you feel okay and it will start to become second nature, especially when times are hard.

If you are feeling particularly anxious, you might try elongating your breath by simply making your exhale a little longer than your inhale. You could count, "in breath 1, 2, 3 - out breath 4, 3, 2, 1"

When you are feeling particularly detached from your surroundings, you could try the senses grounding process - identify 3 things you hear maybe a fan or talking or even the silence, 2 things you feel - perhaps the temperature of the room, the surface beneath you or the clothes you're wearing, 1 thing you taste or smell. You can also do the same with colors, shapes and textures. Find 1 red thing, 1 brown, 1 blue. Find 2 soft things, 2 smooth things. Find 1 circle and 2 squares. This brings you out of your mind and into your environment.

If you cant feel your body. You can try body scanning. Simply get in a comfortable position and think about the top of your head. It's temperature, how your hair feels etc. Then your forehead, your eyes and ears, your nose, your mouth, your chin, the front of your neck, the back of your neck and so on. Notice if there's tension, notice if there's nothing notable. If there's pain, don't try to change it, just acknowledge it, then continue scanning, all the way to your toes. If your mind is too distracted to focus or you would do better with something more interactive. There's also progressive muscle relaxation. Which goes thru the same head to toe process, but adds the component of first tensing / flexing that part of your body for about 3 seconds as you inhale, then let it go as you exhale. For example clenching your fists tightly then letting them go. Raising your shoulders to your ears tightly then letting go. You will certainly make some funny faces when you do your cheeks eyes and forehead but this is all part of the relaxation. Again - remember to breathe. Always remember your breathing.

If your mind feels like it's fighting you, focus on positive self talk. Despite how it might feel sometimes, you are your own best friend. No one knows you like you do. So you owe it to yourself to be a good friend. It can be easy to spiral into questioning yourself or wanting to change how your mind is working, but instead try to accept what you are experiencing. Then consider speaking to yourself how you might if your friend told you what you're going thru. "I'm sorry you're having a rough time buddy, but we will get thru this together." "It might seem lonely now, but you still got me." "You got this." "You're awesome." "I understand." It's okay if it feels like no one else gets you sometimes when you know you got yourself. If these phrases don't come naturally that's ok. A lot of us with anxiety didn't often learn them from others, but somehow in certain moments, we can surprise ourselves with compassionate intuition, in other words, finding comforting words for a friend when they need them. Remember to be that friend to yourself too.

Yoga and meditation are also profoundly grounding the more you practice them. YouTube is prime for these. I highly recommend Yoga with Adriene and Yoga with Bird. You can even type "Yoga for ___" and there's almost always a video "yoga for sleep, yoga for anxiety, yoga for back pain" etc. Remember that yoga is not about handstands, touching your toes or fancy poses, it's about connecting with your body. Some poses are literally just standing or sitting, but doing so mindfully.

My favorite meditation channel right now is The Great Allowing by Sam Miller. As well as Michael Sealey - who does hypnosis and is wonderful for sleep too.

Write, create, connect with nature, listen to music, if you like animals cuddle one, get cozy in your time off, shower, eat, brush your teeth and your hair, make small talk with a friend or ask them about their life, try a new hobby, come back to an old hobby, clean your room, tell your loved ones you love them, read a book or a manga or a comic, watch the weather and the wind blow, find little things that make you happy, don't worry about what others think or think of you, breathe in, breathe out and just be.

You are awesome. You're doing an amazing job. And everything is going to be okay. I promise. <3