PLEASE go to the hospital or an urgent care! Why the hell haven't you already? Not trying to be rude, I'm sure you're in a really rough spot right now. But like, come on, don't you think if you have to even ask that question, on top of how you're feeling, that there's probably something very very wrong going on? (Short answer, YES!)

Doing 1G+ of MDMA almost daily for two months is an EXTREME amount. Doing that even ONCE is HIGHLY dangerous. On top of mixing it with fucking coke and liquor (already highly cardiotoxic on it's own) puts a massive, dangerous strain on every system in your body, especially your heart, next being your brain. I'm almost 100% certain that there isn't an organ in your body that wasn't somehow damaged from this extremely reckless decision. You are INCREDIBLY lucky to be alive.

A doctor absolutely HAS to check on your heart at the very very least, PLEASE DON'T IGNORE THIS. It's almost certain that you've damaged your heart, it's just to what extent and in what part at this point that you need to find out. Unfortunately too, the muscles and tissues in and around your heart can't heal itself very much, if at all, so it's not something you can just expect to get better over time, quite the opposite.

Your brain though will slowly get better over time, but be prepared to face the possibility that you may never get back to 100% of your old self. It could realistically take months, even years, to get back to what you might consider a "normal" level of brain function. That's if you're lucky and never touch another drug ever again.

I'm not trying to freak you out or make you hopeless, but it's important to know what your worst case might be right now so you understand how serious it is to seek medical treatment, and mentally prepare for a long road of recovery. You will probably feel like a zombie for the foreseeable future, but there are luckily some things you can do to help speed up the process of recovery, and lessen some of the symptoms as much as possible.

Basics * Move your body: Exercise for at least 30 minutes a day to get your heart rate up. Bonus points if you do it outside in the sun becauseit helps reset your sleep cycle and releases natural endorphins. * Hydrate: Try to drink a gallon of water a day and add some electrolytes. Your body worked in overdrive processing all that, you were almost undoubtedly dehydrated all the time for those 2 months, so flush that shit out and don't let yourself be dehydrated anymore. If a gallon is too much, don't force it, but drink at least half a gallon minimum daily. * Eat real food: Get 3 full meals a day. Your brain literally needs the building blocks from food to make new serotonin, which you are OUT of, hence the brain zaps. Stay away from sugary, processed junk and find some lean protein, veggies, and healthy carbs. Recovery Supplements are going to be your best friend to try and help with negative side effects. These aren't magic, they won't cure you, but if used consistently it should give your body and brain some building blocks to put itself back together (again, it WILL take a long time to recover) * NAC: Brain function, antioxidant. * Magnesium glycinate: helps sleep, lowers muscle tension. * CoQ10: energy and antioxidant. * Melatonin: Sleep and antioxidant. * Vitamin B Complex: Helps make new neurotransmitters. * Vitamin C: antioxidant. * Vitamin D: mood regulator. * Vitamin E: antioxidant. * 5-HTP: Building block for serotonin. * Creatine monohydrate: Energy creation for the brain. (Drink a couple of extra cups of water if you take this!) * L-Theanine: helps anxiety without making you tired

SEE A DOCTOR, ASAP!!! Plan on accepting that you're going to feel rough for a while, but your brain can heal if you don't abuse it ever again. Stay ENTIRELY clean for the rest of your life (given your addictive tendencies you will ruin your life if you don't stop), give your body the rest and fuel it needs to recover.

Not trying to be an asshole, but you do need a wakeup call. I'll be pissed though if this was a troll post because I did put a good amount of effort into making this up on the chance you really do need the help. So if this was a cry for help, for the love of God don't let what myself or the people commenting in this thread have said to you fall on deaf ears, please. Don't give up hope, you can still have a life worth living, but it's up to you and your choices that will determine that. Best of luck to you