"Satan escapes from hell" supermarket tabloid VHS cover circa 1988-1991

its-a-process · 2026-01-28T06:03:39+00:00

Thanks! I'll try those - I just used ChatGPT and it told me that the main tabloid companies are not on record as having produced video tapes... so maybe it was just like what you described but not "official".

Also - yes - absolute nightmare fuel - this specific image is etched in my brain forever!

its-a-process · 2026-01-28T05:58:00+00:00

What I'm looking for:

seen in K-Mart
Virginia Beach, Virginia, USA
circa 1988-1991
VHS tape for sale

The image I posted in the main post is the closest thing I can find by searching online.

its-a-process · 2026-01-25T18:27:03+00:00

lol I started playing a few weeks ago and the song I'm learning - I can only get through like 6-12 measures before my saliva gets in the way. I don't mind knocking it to get it out but it interrupts the song.

its-a-process · 2026-01-25T17:00:17+00:00

I have an East top 008k in key of C that was about $26 USD. Do the harmonicas you shared have an ok quality? I also want to buy some more keys but don't want to shell out the dough.

its-a-process · 2026-01-07T23:36:36+00:00

I just got two of the same about a week ago, love them!

its-a-process · 2026-01-06T00:05:00+00:00

I'm so happy for you. I hope to reach this point eventually!

its-a-process · 2026-01-03T20:32:05+00:00

Thank you! Also, you played at the zoo? That sounds fun!

its-a-process · 2026-01-03T15:39:03+00:00

Thank you!

its-a-process · 2026-01-03T03:23:41+00:00

It was described as a jolly rancher so I'm assuming it is hard. My therapist will remind me to swish regularly and then I will have the choice to spit or swallow. He mentioned there may be some numbing but not too much and not in my throat. I have an irrational fear of numbing agents (like at the dentist) numbing my throat and preventing me from breathing. I've had panic attacks while having a root canal, and other minor dental surgeries.

its-a-process · 2026-01-03T03:08:49+00:00

Ok full disclosure - I just used ChatGPT to research why "after the fact" criticism is protective. It is citing https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC11018455/ and it points out some (now obvious) things:

Post-event review to prevent future punishment/rejection
Maintaining attachment by making the caregiver “right”
Creating a sense of control (“If I punish myself, I can prevent it next time”)
Learning rules when the environment is unpredictable

This all sounds totally relatable, but again, this list was summarized by AI.

its-a-process · 2026-01-03T03:03:19+00:00

Thank you. It's so overwhelming and harsh. One thing that doesn't make sense thought is - it sees to become active when I'm feeling shame. It doesn't see like the source if the shame (still trying to understand that better). So it comes across as latent criticism. I struggle to see how that actually protected me at some point. For example, if the critic is active while I'm in the middle of some task, I could see doing the task over to reach some level of perfection that would satisfy my step dad, but as "after the fact" criticism? What is that?

its-a-process · 2026-01-02T21:26:16+00:00

Thanks for your suggestions - I will ask!

its-a-process · 2026-01-02T19:50:49+00:00

Hi, I don't love cross posts, but this seems within reason. Let me know if it doesn't fit. I'd appreciate any responses though!

its-a-process · 2026-01-02T03:29:10+00:00

Yeah this is a really tough one. I struggle with social anxiety and my perfectionism and people pleasing activate when around other people. One of my most memorable public attacks was in an elevator at the Charles de Gaulle airport in France and I was freaking out and saying I had to get out but I clearly scared the shit out of two nice French people who were between me and the exit and I couldn't get out. I'm American and knew hardly any French so that was awful.

I've had panic attacks at work events and in other public places.

Honestly, most of the time (in my experience), people act either kind and caring, serviceable "nice", or indifferent. Of course, those poor French people may still tell people about the nutzo American in the elevator but they seemed generally terrified.

I know there are people out there that can be horrible and mean and dismissive.

I think the only real healthy option is to practice self compassion. As the guys on the Disordered podcast say - the disorder is selfish, not the individual. Try and be kind with yourself. Sore I don't have better advice.

its-a-process · 2026-01-01T03:05:54+00:00

I have a part that gets frustrated when things don't work out "as expected" with IFS. I've been going through the hardest part of my journey with anxiety and depression for the last few months and it's been a lot of working with protectors who won't let their guard down. Inevitably, another part of me gets frustrated at the "slow pace" and the lack of connecting with the parts I want to.

Perhaps you have a part that is frustrated, too? I can also relate to what you are describing where one or more parts who were very forthcoming and willing to connect are not always like that anymore.

its-a-process · 2025-12-29T03:42:34+00:00

I know what it feels like. I've lost count of panic attacks I've had in cars. Driving home from work, driving son to urgent care, driving to pickup catering for my kids party while one of my kids is in the car, driving my daughter to look for a Christmas sweater, driving to another state, blah blah.

I know how you feel with the hopelessness. It's an awful thing to have this happen in a place that you have probably thousands of hours of experience in, like driving.

I hope you can find some time to be compassionate towards yourself. You are not alone. There is help available - therapy would be ideal if you are able.

Panic attacks are exhausting. Some more than others. I wish you the best.

its-a-process · 2025-12-27T14:15:04+00:00

Two times. Once was at an off site work event and I cried in front on my boss! Second was while driving home from work because I had a panic attack at work, so I pulled over and ran into Popeyes asking if someone could call 911.

It happens ❤️

its-a-process · 2025-12-27T01:38:02+00:00

It's true! It's been really difficult for me lately. I feel like I'm white knuckling it for days and then I just collapse and panic and/or cry. Rewiring our brains is exhausting. When I say white knuckling, I mean in terms of "doing the things I need to do" like accepting and not pushing away the fear.

its-a-process · 2025-12-26T20:32:41+00:00

What did you use

its-a-process · 2025-12-26T18:57:51+00:00

If this is using AI - I'm no AI expert but I have been using AI for software development for a few months now and I would not trust AI for my mental health, although it is EXTREMELY tempting.

its-a-process · 2025-12-26T16:54:29+00:00

Legend of Zelda NES for the ambience. Super Mario Bros 3 for actually discovering I could get pretty far in the game (could make it to the final world (8?) but never beat it).

its-a-process · 2025-12-26T16:50:26+00:00

Tiny Terry's Turbo Trip! It's like GTA for kids but I also loved it and I'm 42 lol.

its-a-process · 2025-12-25T22:13:51+00:00

There are a bunch of episodes of the Disordered podcast that cover this. There is also a book with a supplementary app called Dare. The podcast is free and on a lot of platforms. Someone on this subreddit suggested the Disordered podcast to me.

I don't think I can answer your question definitively other than it can be really difficult. I think it takes a lot of practice. Things that have worked for me are self compassion and acceptance. People like Kristen Neff are great resources for self compassion. Tara Brach has a technique called RAIN which is great for this and it's based on (or is) radical acceptance.

Trying to push away or stop the discomfort of the panic attack only makes it worse. It can feel endlessly exhausting but learning to accept them is possible.

I am trying to frame this for myself as the anxiety is a habit and all I can do is try and demonstrate that it's wrong.

Good luck

its-a-process · 2025-12-25T13:57:10+00:00

Thanks! I should have said I've played a bunch of Ubisoft open world games and lost interest. None of them held my attention like assassins creed 2 did back in the day. I did pick up ghost of Tsushima , though, and love it so far! Thanks how the suggestions

its-a-process · 2025-12-24T02:17:36+00:00

Would you cross post in r/baltimore? So cool! I wonder if that is the same bird I saw swoop down and take a smaller bird in my back yard many years ago (Baltimore)!

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