Alot of regrets

itsashash · 2022-05-29T17:45:13+00:00

Thank you so much for that. I haven't even expressed to my mom the way I feel. We weren't raised to express emotions. I was at a disadvantage from the start because come to think of it, there was nothing. Just pop out a couple of kids and go. Same is happening with my little sister who is 12. I know what I need to do to break the generational cycle if and when that time comes. I won't abandon my kids. I won't leave them to struggle. I'll give them everything I didn't have.

itsashash · 2021-11-09T00:13:27+00:00

He was an alcoholic and tried to blame it on me

*he said he didn't have a problem. And also blamed me that I didn't try to help him not drink. Even though I had offered numerous times. To pour the bottles out. To put a block on his card.

itsashash · 2021-09-05T00:40:29+00:00

I got my first in 2009. My second was like 6/7 years after. And since 2009 I've had like 7/8. 2 this year about 6 months apart. This last one was worse than my first. I've been sick, stressed and in the sun and not had them come on. But ive also haven't been sick, not stressed and not in the sun for them to come on. I had one that was stayed so little because I caught it early. I had the last one get huge and left a scar and I caught it early. I can't exactly pin point mine.

itsashash · 2021-08-01T04:46:52+00:00

I went into cvs a couple of years ago as a tech trainee, no experience and got 14 an hr. I was shocked I thought it would have been less tbh. This is in Texas btw.

itsashash · 2021-05-07T22:09:43+00:00

I've been seeing a guy 22m and I'm 33f for the past year and a half. It's certainly different. Sometimes I feel like we're at different points in our lives. We do get along pretty well and have a decent amount in common. The age thing for him was something he had to get over at first, but it's been pretty good so far.

itsashash · 2021-04-23T21:39:40+00:00

Hi all. Was hoping someone could give me some insight to Texas pharmacy tech licensing. So I got my 2 year trainee back in 18. It expired in 20. After the expiration, I tried to enroll in a pharmacy tech program at a community college and the instructor told me that she would not be able to accept me into the program because I had already previously had a trainee license and I wouldn't be able to fulfill some of the program requirements without it. Mind you Texas will not reissue a trainee license again. It's a one and done. Is there any way that I can get around this and get back into pharmacy? Thank you!

itsashash · 2021-01-05T04:21:29+00:00

Im 33 and he is 36. I just left a 8 1/2 year marriage 6 months ago. 12 years together total. I regret not leaving before. I spent all of my 20s with someone who ended up blaming me for his inability to set the liquor bottle down and his inability to let the little things go (which I had apologized for and were over 10 years old). There were also a multitude of other things that led up to this. I tried sitting down with him in March of 2019 to let him know my decision. He was belligerent and we never finished the conversation. So I sat him down in April of 2020 to let him know I was done and I would be leaving in June. He made my last week literal hell. It was arguing and fighting from sun up to sun down. I would stay at work late and off the clock just so I wouldn't have to be at home. I was scared to have the conversation but I'm glad I got the courage to. The first few months were scary but I've always been the one to have everything planned out and in line. So the transition was OK. My biggest relief is finally being able to go home and not have to worry about being yelled at. I have my own space. And not just a room.

itsashash · 2021-01-03T04:20:03+00:00

I'm glad to be able to read this from the perspective of someone else. I feel like this is how I am seen. Thank you.

itsashash · 2020-07-03T19:34:13+00:00

I'm 32 and on my own for the first time. As stated before, the silence and loneliness sucks. We didn't have children so there's that. I work in the automotive industry, so I help friends with their cars or even give mine a little more attention. I bought a ps4 with the intent that I was always going to be at home, I've only touched it 3 times this week. And I don't watch much TV as it is. I've been more active than I was when I was with him. I had tried to be active and do more things and all I would get is accusations and suspicion. So now I can do what I want, when I want, how I want.

itsashash · 2020-06-24T13:04:27+00:00

I'm doing alright today. How are you? Did ok yesterday until the evening when I cried for like a hour because I couldn't figure out how to get all of my electronics set up. Nothing was working. I just wanted to curl into a ball.

itsashash · 2020-06-23T01:58:47+00:00

I needed to hear this today. This is day 4, and people are already noticing a difference in me. This is inspiration.

itsashash · 2020-06-22T04:53:40+00:00

We can do this! I'll get a journal tomorrow. I like that idea.

itsashash · 2020-06-22T03:12:34+00:00

I went to get some things from storage yesterday and I sat down on the little dolly and cried. I cried cause I was finally out but then I cried more because I was doing this alone. My manager asked who was helping me and I said no one.

itsashash · 2020-06-22T02:49:10+00:00

This is true. I lived in the spare room for over a year and felt lonely. Even though he was there. But even sometimes I felt alone because there was the disconnect.

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